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[derbycommittee]

Every minute of today seemed to have lasted longer than 60 seconds. Believe me, I'm not complaining because like I said, complaining just makes me realize how much I do not like a lot of things and that sucks. I actually thought today was all right because I've been feeling like every moment is already part of a routine. Not having to do any school work, dressing up in something other than our uniform, being obliged to take the Assumption College entrance exam, even eating just two of those turons and buying shake instead of picking from other people's lunches, and of course, having to watch and learn from the Cordillera folks made things definitely not routine like. I've been so content with the things happening that I feel so stuck. I feel like I have nothing else to do but let things happen. I think I'm starting to miss out on getting stressed or having no time to sleep because those make me feel like I'm being productive and useful. I actually have things to accomplish and deadlines to meet but I got lots of time to finish them. I've been taking things slow and I've been starting to appreciate more things now such as family time, other friends who I used to spend less time with, football training etc. I realized how much I hate real life drama even if people think it makes their lives interesting. Drama is sad. I don't think people should like it, not that I'm sure that the people who I think like it, really do like it. So let's deal with it and move on to things that could make things better; I'm connoting college. I seriously seriously want to be in college already. Not that I want to fast forward my life but more like I want to be serious already. I want to focus and really grow up. I want to be independent and make rational and right decisions. I'm not saying that I don't take things seriously now, but I think if I counted the times I acted wisely compared to the number of times I just did something impulsive, immoral or simply stupid, my immaturity would have won. It probably is still winning but I try. I pray to God that I'd become a doctor someday. To become one, you must be responsible, smart, focused, mature, all the like. Those are the same things I'm really hoping I'd be able to develop in me. So this entry is starting to make me feel self-centered with all the "I"'s.

Here are some things that are not about me but I still want people to know about them. This part would most likely matter to you more.



Polar bears are dying because of global warming!!! Look it up.

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Gawad Kalingga in Cavite tomorrow. Try to go. It's just in the morning, parties happen at night.