As my mind wanders....
Ya know, lots of people think I'm a perv, or scary, or gonna kill you at the next instant, and mean and stuff...
But ya know, I'm really not any of that. (okay, maybe a little, but we all have a dark side)
for one thing, I'm honest! like just now admitting i have a bad side (and then people are like "HAH! he admitted it! *shame shame shame*" and think I'm an evil psycho -.-)
It seems like one of the big things is that no one properly understands what I'm trying to get at...
like a month ago, i think (mebbeh longer), Me, Tim, Riss and Silver were at Wharton Brook, sitting on the edge of this little foot bridge. Silver stepped over me to see Tim, and then when she came back, I said "ya know, if i was an inch shorter i could have seen up yur skirt" and of course, they both got mad, and tried to push me off the bridge... I expected it, but thats cuz everyone misses my point -.-
Basically, what I was trying to say, was "watch where u step while wearing a skirt, there's a whole lotta assholes who would have taken advantage of the situation"
Apparently, I'm just not blunt enough for society. ~sigh~
Also, I'm polite, possibly too polite. I let this tendency die quickly around friends cuz they all seem to think I'm being weird if I'm polite... (mike, how do u do that without people giving u weird looks?)
I know i hit and pick on everyone, and that i seem cruel. But I usually feel HORRIBLE if i see that i really actually hurt someone... like horrible to a point that I want to curl up and die.
I can get REALLY emotional. I don't do emotions at a simple level. If i get sad, I feel the need to bawl my eyes out. If I'm happy, I feel like I could fly, and do a quadruple backflip and just do anything! ya know?
When I get mad, i become the most sadistic psychotic sonuvabitch EVER. Like if it weren't for years and years of restraining myself and repressing my anger, then everyone I've ever gotten mad at would be an unidentifiable shadow of a carcass, splayed all over a room. Thats why I avoid as much human contact is possible when angry, cuz even if im not mad at that person who's near me, there's still a chance that I'll snap on them, and turn them into a mutilated corpse. I scare myself with that. I scare the fuck out of myself, thinking that I might hurt someone i care about some day. *cold shivers*
I'm also paanoid, I worry about everything, I'm the type who hears someone laughing down the hall or across the room and think they're laughing at me
right... the biggest thing that probably creeps people out
I know I'm not cute or anything, but I like to hug people. But for fuck's sake, why does everyone think its so goddamn weird?! Maybe its just cause I'm a guy -.-
If I go out to Long Island, we all hug in greeting, we're friends. We care about each other
Why doens't it work like that here?
Have I too quickly called people friends?
But ya know, I'm really not any of that. (okay, maybe a little, but we all have a dark side)
for one thing, I'm honest! like just now admitting i have a bad side (and then people are like "HAH! he admitted it! *shame shame shame*" and think I'm an evil psycho -.-)
It seems like one of the big things is that no one properly understands what I'm trying to get at...
like a month ago, i think (mebbeh longer), Me, Tim, Riss and Silver were at Wharton Brook, sitting on the edge of this little foot bridge. Silver stepped over me to see Tim, and then when she came back, I said "ya know, if i was an inch shorter i could have seen up yur skirt" and of course, they both got mad, and tried to push me off the bridge... I expected it, but thats cuz everyone misses my point -.-
Basically, what I was trying to say, was "watch where u step while wearing a skirt, there's a whole lotta assholes who would have taken advantage of the situation"
Apparently, I'm just not blunt enough for society. ~sigh~
Also, I'm polite, possibly too polite. I let this tendency die quickly around friends cuz they all seem to think I'm being weird if I'm polite... (mike, how do u do that without people giving u weird looks?)
I know i hit and pick on everyone, and that i seem cruel. But I usually feel HORRIBLE if i see that i really actually hurt someone... like horrible to a point that I want to curl up and die.
I can get REALLY emotional. I don't do emotions at a simple level. If i get sad, I feel the need to bawl my eyes out. If I'm happy, I feel like I could fly, and do a quadruple backflip and just do anything! ya know?
When I get mad, i become the most sadistic psychotic sonuvabitch EVER. Like if it weren't for years and years of restraining myself and repressing my anger, then everyone I've ever gotten mad at would be an unidentifiable shadow of a carcass, splayed all over a room. Thats why I avoid as much human contact is possible when angry, cuz even if im not mad at that person who's near me, there's still a chance that I'll snap on them, and turn them into a mutilated corpse. I scare myself with that. I scare the fuck out of myself, thinking that I might hurt someone i care about some day. *cold shivers*
I'm also paanoid, I worry about everything, I'm the type who hears someone laughing down the hall or across the room and think they're laughing at me
right... the biggest thing that probably creeps people out
I know I'm not cute or anything, but I like to hug people. But for fuck's sake, why does everyone think its so goddamn weird?! Maybe its just cause I'm a guy -.-
If I go out to Long Island, we all hug in greeting, we're friends. We care about each other
Why doens't it work like that here?
Have I too quickly called people friends?