More crazy

[derangedq]

So I got my packet of check-in information from Mclean today and I'm much more nervous than ever about the whole thing. I know it'll be good for me and even possibly solve my problems for the rest of my life... but holy SHIT am I afraid of working through the anxiety. I've lived in a state of anxious arousal (Giggle all you want but it's a scientific term!) pretty much constantly since sometime around puberty. It was never this bad before then... but it's been so long that I don't know what to expect if I do solve my problems.

BLAH. Being crazy sucks balls.

Anywho, Portcon is this weekend! It's looking like I'll be up for a day, possibly two if there is crash space available. I'm so excited for my Hannah Montana outfit. ;D