Realy shit, But somethings i need to get out
I wake up, and my first thoughts are gym today?
I wake up and wish the hole inside me would fill and the emtyness wud just go away,
But no, it continues to stay,
I wake up with it present, everyday.
I wake up, and my stomach growls,
So i wake up with a grin.
I wake up next to him,
Yet im still waking up alone,
He thinks he loves me, His girlfriend Simone,
But he dont know me atall,
And my heart takes a fall, everytime i lie to him,
my friends, and my family too,
So for once, right now, im being true.
I wake up at 4am,
Awaking to the memorys that i blame,
To why im awaking, to misery and self-shame,
Was it the diet pills i took when i was 9?
So young, yet such old self hating eyes,
Or was it the first time,
I was desperate enough to make myself sick...
I tell other girls, they dont need to diet, IM THAT MUCH of a HYPOCRIT!!
I wake up, and my heart tells me that a 2pound loss is amazing!
My head knows better, and screaming at the mental retarded disaster,
I just slipped too far,
All those years ago,
So everymorning I awake in this frantic state,
Did i lose... did i gain...
I dont ever awake from dreams of possible better days
Because ino,
Its thinner, or LIFE letting go
I wake up and wish the hole inside me would fill and the emtyness wud just go away,
But no, it continues to stay,
I wake up with it present, everyday.
I wake up, and my stomach growls,
So i wake up with a grin.
I wake up next to him,
Yet im still waking up alone,
He thinks he loves me, His girlfriend Simone,
But he dont know me atall,
And my heart takes a fall, everytime i lie to him,
my friends, and my family too,
So for once, right now, im being true.
I wake up at 4am,
Awaking to the memorys that i blame,
To why im awaking, to misery and self-shame,
Was it the diet pills i took when i was 9?
So young, yet such old self hating eyes,
Or was it the first time,
I was desperate enough to make myself sick...
I tell other girls, they dont need to diet, IM THAT MUCH of a HYPOCRIT!!
I wake up, and my heart tells me that a 2pound loss is amazing!
My head knows better, and screaming at the mental retarded disaster,
I just slipped too far,
All those years ago,
So everymorning I awake in this frantic state,
Did i lose... did i gain...
I dont ever awake from dreams of possible better days
Because ino,
Its thinner, or LIFE letting go