Trying to get my mind off so called-friends
PEOPLE -
[] ask if I’m bulimic
[x] call me fat
[] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[] say I’m pretty
[ x] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 100 lbs
[] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[sometimes] I could stop being ana/mia
I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[ ] shaking
[x] being weak
[x] losing weight
[ ] being anorexic/bulimic
[] green tea
[ ] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[ x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[ x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[count scars saying things?] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I have/had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[] I have freckles.
FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[x] I've lost a child.
EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my trousers rip in public.
RELATIONSHIPS
[] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've cheated in a relationship.
[] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
SEXUALITY
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.
HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[x] take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[] I'm at my thinnest
[ ]I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat - if i ate too much or something unhealthy
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out
[x] I've fasted
[x]I've taken diet pills
[x]i've used laxatives
[x] I've purged
HAVE/HAD
[x] Bulimia
[] Anorexia
[x] Ednos
[] Orthorexia
[] Over-exercising
[x] Binge eating
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[x] I've fainted from exhaustion
I've done:
[x] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[x] Anti-depressants
[x] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[x] Mushrooms
[x] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
[ ] Herion
[x] Other
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[] I have a ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[] I love food
[sometimes] I want to be this way
[x] I don't want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[x] Being thin is my top priority
[more terrified than not wanting] I don't want to get better
[] I do want to get better
[] I am in treatment
[x] I'm doing this for me
[] I'm doing this for someone
[x] I'm doing this to prove that i have control.