waiting for this life to change, seems like its taking me forever..
yeah this is pretty long cuz i havent updated so this prolly wont get read all the way through but o well..i just had to get it out......
omFg
ok so yeah i havent updated this in soooo long....alots happened...
me and marcus=nope :\
me and rob=nope
nothing ever works.
ughh i dont know anymore and dont really care at this point.
right now im just lookin for someone to have fun with and whos gonna be there for me and not fuck me over and cheat on me or just ditch me all together.
me and amanda have been hangin out like non stop for i dont even know how long..i love her guts to death.
and then...DRAMA and shit and more shit on top of all that shit...and just $^%%&*^%$$&^%#$@$^&%....
i still dont know where my mind is right now...i never do..i wish i did but i just dont.....
started talkin to ricky a few weeks ago...told me he likes me a few days ago but i just...idk..we just need to be friends for a while cuz its been a long time since ive seen him and i wanna hang out w/ him alot before anything goes down..i just need time to make up my mind.
especially cuz i dont want to put ryan through anymore crap..i know he likes me and i like him back..i really do but i dont think he thinks that anymore..hes thinking im just using him as a backup and thats not how it is at all..hes kinda backed off and doesnt really talk to me much anymore like he used to but thats prolly cuz im never really home that much anymore but..idk...i think i might just go for it and try it out w/ him and see how things go.. hes not a bad guy so idk why the hell ive been acting like this..i just have a habit of pushing people away...im not sure why but i do and i hate that. i need to stop it cuz that kinda shit isnt gonna get me anywhere in life..
anyways, enough about all that bullshit..
uhmm yeah..warped tour this year was the SHITT!!!!!!
ive seen fall out boy every single time theyve been to jacksonville and i FINALLY got to meet em....
got hugs from PETE WENTZ and PATRICK STUMP so that was just awesome.
and i met up with all the guys from red jumpsuit and they were all amazing.
i love them to death.
i ran into elias EVERYWHERE I WENT and saw them at like 7:40 and holy freakin cow were they amazing!!!!!!!!
so yeah all of fall out boy and red jumpsuit signed my warped shirt along with the guys from loser's luck..(met britton and the guys last year so they had to sign the shirt again of course)
alltogether i saw....senses fail, atreyu, story of the year, reggie and the full effect, mae, FALL OUT BOY, hawthorne heights, my chemical romance, RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS, the spill canvas, the starting line and a couple more that i dont really remember right now...
SIMPLY FUCKING AMAZING.
im going to bed now cuz im fucking beat..im sore and i hurt.
good night<3
p.s. sry if NONE of this made sense...im pretty tired so yeah....
omFg
ok so yeah i havent updated this in soooo long....alots happened...
me and marcus=nope :\
me and rob=nope
nothing ever works.
ughh i dont know anymore and dont really care at this point.
right now im just lookin for someone to have fun with and whos gonna be there for me and not fuck me over and cheat on me or just ditch me all together.
me and amanda have been hangin out like non stop for i dont even know how long..i love her guts to death.
and then...DRAMA and shit and more shit on top of all that shit...and just $^%%&*^%$$&^%#$@$^&%....
i still dont know where my mind is right now...i never do..i wish i did but i just dont.....
started talkin to ricky a few weeks ago...told me he likes me a few days ago but i just...idk..we just need to be friends for a while cuz its been a long time since ive seen him and i wanna hang out w/ him alot before anything goes down..i just need time to make up my mind.
especially cuz i dont want to put ryan through anymore crap..i know he likes me and i like him back..i really do but i dont think he thinks that anymore..hes thinking im just using him as a backup and thats not how it is at all..hes kinda backed off and doesnt really talk to me much anymore like he used to but thats prolly cuz im never really home that much anymore but..idk...i think i might just go for it and try it out w/ him and see how things go.. hes not a bad guy so idk why the hell ive been acting like this..i just have a habit of pushing people away...im not sure why but i do and i hate that. i need to stop it cuz that kinda shit isnt gonna get me anywhere in life..
anyways, enough about all that bullshit..
uhmm yeah..warped tour this year was the SHITT!!!!!!
ive seen fall out boy every single time theyve been to jacksonville and i FINALLY got to meet em....
got hugs from PETE WENTZ and PATRICK STUMP so that was just awesome.
and i met up with all the guys from red jumpsuit and they were all amazing.
i love them to death.
i ran into elias EVERYWHERE I WENT and saw them at like 7:40 and holy freakin cow were they amazing!!!!!!!!
so yeah all of fall out boy and red jumpsuit signed my warped shirt along with the guys from loser's luck..(met britton and the guys last year so they had to sign the shirt again of course)
alltogether i saw....senses fail, atreyu, story of the year, reggie and the full effect, mae, FALL OUT BOY, hawthorne heights, my chemical romance, RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS, the spill canvas, the starting line and a couple more that i dont really remember right now...
SIMPLY FUCKING AMAZING.
im going to bed now cuz im fucking beat..im sore and i hurt.
good night<3
p.s. sry if NONE of this made sense...im pretty tired so yeah....