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Ok, so my internet was down for a while. It really sucked. I hate not being able to document my life. Now I forget everything thath appened in the last few days. And now I'll forget it forever. If I don't write it down, I forget. I've wasted my life and time. Grrrr.
I went to Votech today and framed and laminated f00tball stuff for Ed. He insists on paying me for my time and effort and stuff, so I will be buying more straw for my bunnies. None of my money EVERY goes to me. I've nothing to buy for myself. My Aunt asked me what I want for Christmas. I told her to get me a package of shingles. I hope she didn't mistake "Shingles" for "please Aunt, Karen, what I really want is a thong and oodles of girl stuff I can hang on my self so I can look like all the people at my school that are dirty tramps and pray that abortion stays legal!!" (hint hint).
Seriously, I don't want anything for Christmas and I tell anyone who asks this every year. I absolutely can't stand to think that I am suporting the fricking commercialism of the season. That's not what its about and I'm sick and tired of it being blown out of proportion. It makes me sick how months before December everything suddenly becomes christmas. Its sickening that they have like, Christmas sales at the pet store. "Puppies 40% off!" I hate it how stores just play on that and every other season just for money. I want them to suck a rooster.
But every year I will receive gifts. And every year I will receive gifts I don't like and can't used but am forced to keep to try to be 'nice'.I really hate that. Especially with clothes. When people buy me clothes I don't like and then i'm forced to wear them when I see these people just so they know that I absolutely love it. GRRRRR. If I am to be bought anything, I'd rather it be something I can use. Like a stack of 2 X 4's or USB boards, pexie glass, those little metal things you put a padlock onto, SHINGLES..... Because all of my money pretty much goes towards my rabbits. People don't understand that the greatest gift of all to me would be something for my rabbits. Even a bag of rabbit pellets or a bag of sunflower seeds. Vitamin drops, treats, but mostly building material, food, and bedding (straw and wood shavings....wood SHAVINGS...NOT CEDAR.....cedar gives small animals respiratory problems.) Now then. Either do me a favor and don't buy me a gift, or don't make me wear a nasty sweater next time I see you. %$&* I hate the holidays.
Oh yeah, and I just discovered that my large jar of change in missing from my room. I suspect my mother, as she ALWAYS steals money from me without asking. This pisses me off so bad, mostly because she doesn't ask and for another thing, I have bunnies to support and she usually uses it for THINGS SHE DOESNT NEED. I will not see MY money go towards adorning our house with another piece of christmas shit. Yes...SHIT. F*&^ the holidays. I should start stealing her money to rent a prostitute and then i'll get me some cigarettes, beer, and all the materials I need to sacrifice a cat unto satan. But its ok because....I didn't ask. I wish my mum would respect me a little more. Every time she says she won't do it again and every time I never get all my money back. I can't even trust her to cash my effing fair check. When she did that....she came back with $40 less than what my check was for. I'm tired of being nice and respectful and decent to people who don't respect me and pretty much don't act like they want to.