at nissan until 9
so i was up last night, probably half hour or so after p had fallen asleep and i guess i tossed or snuggled in or did something and he made a noise so i'm like 'boo?' and he goes 'it was all for nothing' really upset like and in his i'm-still-asleep voice. so i ask him what was all for nothing, curious as to what he's dreaming about and he goes 'the hangers' hahaha, maybe it's not the kind of hangers i'm thinking of, you know, the ones you hang clothes on, but if it was man that's funny.
secret concerns are easier voiced in the dark. also, it's much easier to fall asleep once you've said them outloud. maybe easier to get passed them too? time will tell, today i feel good tho.
i think i'm going to philadelphia the weekend of august 4th, i think being away will be good. i need to call my mom and say 'hey' soon, i get so caught up in everything here that i forget-- i don't forget her, i just forget to call.
i dunno if i wrote about it yet but i got a job. i got the job and a raise by skipping the second interview. the lady called june at nissan and june gave me an amazing reference, she called me back, forgave me for skipping and said she could pay me 14.50. that was the bare minimum i could accept but at least i did it. i'm going to work every other weekend at nissan too... so that'll be like just a little extra 'fun money'. if things cost what i expect i'll have a 100-200 left over every month before that, so we'll see. i'm good at shopping to save money, looking for coupons (using said coupons) etc so i think everything will work out great. i think i can afford 550 tops (before utilities) for rent-- but around 650 total. let's say 100 a week on gas&groceries combined, still leaves me a solid at least 100 left over. before the little extra work. ok, i feel ok about that.
The History of Love is amazing, it makes me feel ways about things and i like that.
"Her kiss was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering"
(and also)
"It's not that we've forgotten the language of gestures entirely. The habit of moving our hands while we speak is left over from it. Clapping, pointing, giving hte thumbs-up: all artifacts of ancient gestures. Holding hands, for example, is a way to remember how it feels to say nothing together. And at night, when it's too dark to see, we find it necessary to gesture on each other's bodies to make ourselves understood."
oh man oh man. it makes me all tingly.