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My head is reeling. Thursday I had a party type thinger and Matt and Timmy came and stayed the longest, aside from Kim of course who spent the night. Matt and I talked and yada yada, I feel like I've written this all already. Later that night Kim asked me who I like cuddling with more, Timmy or Matt. I said I didn't know because both of them are good snuggle buddies. But after some time I said Timmy, because I really like him, despite my giving up on him. Although I'm not sure I really am giving up on him. I think I'm just trying to say that I am to attempt to change my mindset. Whatever.
Saturday night I had sex with one of my best friends. I've known Nick since high school. We were both drinking and I was fine but he doesn't remember it. He may now, but he didn't yesterday. It's ok because I knew there was a chance that he wasn't going to remember it. We both love eachother very much. We're really close again, since he came home from Bemidji. He was struggling for a long time up there but something happened and he came home for good and he's told me a million times that he's sorry for how he's treated me and that he loves me. I don't regret it at all. And that makes me happy. Sleeping with Kyle was a bad situation. I've known Nick since I was 15. I think it was a good thing for me to sleep with someone who I love and who loves me. And I don't think things will get wierd as long as I don't let them. My problem is that I want it to happen again, with him being sober. Yesterday morning when I asked him what he remembered and having sex with me wasn't in his memory, I told him and he looked not suprised at all. He said he usually remembers things eventually. I'm hoping he does remember it though. I don't know. Like I said, my head is reeling.
Last night Kim and I were taking Cory home from Buffalo, and John calls me. John fucking Klein. CALLED ME! I was almost in shock from this. We talked for probably 20 minutes. He's coming home for Easter. Yes, I'll be having sex with John. What else would I do with him ^_^ haha. No, really, I love John. I've known him for a few years too. He just got back from Iraq about 2 months ago or so. I miss him very much.
Saturday night I had sex with one of my best friends. I've known Nick since high school. We were both drinking and I was fine but he doesn't remember it. He may now, but he didn't yesterday. It's ok because I knew there was a chance that he wasn't going to remember it. We both love eachother very much. We're really close again, since he came home from Bemidji. He was struggling for a long time up there but something happened and he came home for good and he's told me a million times that he's sorry for how he's treated me and that he loves me. I don't regret it at all. And that makes me happy. Sleeping with Kyle was a bad situation. I've known Nick since I was 15. I think it was a good thing for me to sleep with someone who I love and who loves me. And I don't think things will get wierd as long as I don't let them. My problem is that I want it to happen again, with him being sober. Yesterday morning when I asked him what he remembered and having sex with me wasn't in his memory, I told him and he looked not suprised at all. He said he usually remembers things eventually. I'm hoping he does remember it though. I don't know. Like I said, my head is reeling.
Last night Kim and I were taking Cory home from Buffalo, and John calls me. John fucking Klein. CALLED ME! I was almost in shock from this. We talked for probably 20 minutes. He's coming home for Easter. Yes, I'll be having sex with John. What else would I do with him ^_^ haha. No, really, I love John. I've known him for a few years too. He just got back from Iraq about 2 months ago or so. I miss him very much.