God is so good to us
All of my teachers from my freshman year have been commenting on how they don't recognize me, saying I am so grown up and what not....I guess that means I am through my awkward stage, believe me I was awkward....I walked so weird, because of my back, I mean so weird that Chelsea’s mom seriously thought I was retarded and gave her daughter props for hanging out with me. It didn't help that I was anorexic skinny and pale because of always being in the hospital......It is so weird I barely think about those days, it is like they are blocked out of my memory but then every once in a while someone will say something about my brace or about how I was in a wheelchair or how much better I look and it makes me think back on those days...those days when everyone knew I walked weird except for me, shoot I still walk a little weird, when I had no really good friends because every time I would make a best friend I would go into the hospital and they would be left with no one and have to find a new best friend and so when I came back I was left with no one, to those days when I traveled around school in my wheelchair, always with someone pushing because I was too weak to roll myself, shoot I had to fight just to be able to go back to school because the doctor didn't think I was up to it, when I flew to Miami and by Gods strength and grace was able to go shopping two weeks after a major back surgery that would normally put people out for at least a month or two, back to all the long hours of physical therapy when they would try to get me to do my exercises at home.........I love thinking back to those times because they make me so thankful for where I am today....God truly performed a miracle, gosh to think if my aunt would have never noticed the slight curve in my back at the pool that day, if I would have never have gone to the doctors, I would have been paralyzed, if not worse. God is so faithful, he loves us and is watching us ever step of the way, gosh this is where I gained my self confidence, because I know he made me like this for a reason, and he had me go through all of the surgeries and trials and what not for a reason, gosh back then I cared nothing at all about my appearance because there was nothing I could do about it, it is even like my scars, most would expect me to be embarrassed because they are some pretty BIG ugly scars, but I am not, it is weird, they don't bug me a bit