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Well after writting a almost 14 page long journal entry i decided to delete it.
Why? because. Even tho i feel fucked up its pointless to care it is a feeling that will subside eventually its just a matter of time really until i just accept it.
But the rest of the journal really can be sumed up in this music video.
This is for the little girl whom is currently sleeping on my bed like a baby. Another anny passes and somehow i feel so happy about it im here sobbing like a fucking idiot about it. There was so much to the entry i deleted but i don't care its not the time nor the place to care nor write the things i did.
All in all what i will mention fom my previous deleted entry is that i feel like im dealing with way too many 2 faced people. I feel like everyone has something hiding behind my back sadly we all know what happens when i find out shit is being kept from me. Its sad when i think even my own mom is keeping shit from me. But in the end even she faces the music when i find out n always confront people about shit they have hid from me with such a vengeful hammer.
I never did understand why i was so malicious about finding out things people hide from me, even if its something nice i treat it as something horrible n condemn them. Anyways i don't know why i feel this way but i just do.
I have to talk to reioko, sounds funny saying this but after telling her i feel like im a wow outcast and im not really welcomed anywhere i genuenly feel like all her motivational messages for me to lvl back on my original server are truly honest-hearted if u will. I don't know i guess i just won't feel ignored or left out, we'll see what happens i still haven't figured it out yet i don't know what im gonna end up doing. who knows maybe ill get banned again and hey, guess what! that solves that! But i really don't know what to do and im looking for options sadly no one is giving me options.
In any case im gonna lay down with the lil girl whom i love so much its almost 4am and i feel like ive neglected her even tho she left me cuddleless to be on the comp with friends earlier. heh... yeh, yeh, i know ms. leigh, i know... its fucked up, but whatever, u can't change the mind of an addict short of threats or abandonment.
Enjoy the video everyone it means alot.
Why? because. Even tho i feel fucked up its pointless to care it is a feeling that will subside eventually its just a matter of time really until i just accept it.
But the rest of the journal really can be sumed up in this music video.
This is for the little girl whom is currently sleeping on my bed like a baby. Another anny passes and somehow i feel so happy about it im here sobbing like a fucking idiot about it. There was so much to the entry i deleted but i don't care its not the time nor the place to care nor write the things i did.
All in all what i will mention fom my previous deleted entry is that i feel like im dealing with way too many 2 faced people. I feel like everyone has something hiding behind my back sadly we all know what happens when i find out shit is being kept from me. Its sad when i think even my own mom is keeping shit from me. But in the end even she faces the music when i find out n always confront people about shit they have hid from me with such a vengeful hammer.
I never did understand why i was so malicious about finding out things people hide from me, even if its something nice i treat it as something horrible n condemn them. Anyways i don't know why i feel this way but i just do.
I have to talk to reioko, sounds funny saying this but after telling her i feel like im a wow outcast and im not really welcomed anywhere i genuenly feel like all her motivational messages for me to lvl back on my original server are truly honest-hearted if u will. I don't know i guess i just won't feel ignored or left out, we'll see what happens i still haven't figured it out yet i don't know what im gonna end up doing. who knows maybe ill get banned again and hey, guess what! that solves that! But i really don't know what to do and im looking for options sadly no one is giving me options.
In any case im gonna lay down with the lil girl whom i love so much its almost 4am and i feel like ive neglected her even tho she left me cuddleless to be on the comp with friends earlier. heh... yeh, yeh, i know ms. leigh, i know... its fucked up, but whatever, u can't change the mind of an addict short of threats or abandonment.
Enjoy the video everyone it means alot.