Samsara

[depreciate]

My dreams are extremely vivid.  I've been sleeping more, and my dreams have become more eerie and ungrounded.

My desire, my thirst for knowledge, exceeds the boundary of secondary education, exceeds what my teachers can give me. I am not content with my education, I'm not being challenged. I feel this may only change once I enter university or college.

I am being driven insane by the level of ennui.

I want a challenge; I'll take my history 12 exam five months early.

Today I spoke with one of my peers about what I plan to do after I graduate. I immediately told him I wanted to anything I am curious about. He replied that this was unusual, he wanted to know towards what career I was going.

I don't think I'll have a career in the fields that I study.

I'm spending my money and my time when I'm in university. Why not study things I'm interested in?

Why is this unusual?

I feel like the objective of education has been warped away from the desire to learn, to learn towards a career, to make money.

Money is one commodity one can always come by.

I am frustrated but there is little I can do but wait, so I must learn patience.