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Okay I officially just witnessed the most awful thing in my life. We disected the most adorable little pig fetus'. I didn't, my group was on the other side of the table all crowded around it, and I cried the whole class. No the WHOLE class... 2 hours. I still have a cold so I could play it off, but I hate when I cry and have to cover it. My teacher kept asking me if I was fine and I said that I just had a cold, cause I kept blowing my nose. It just astounds me how little respect people can have for life. I hate anything without life, I HATE it! It's so sad, and I wasn't fine I felt like barfing the entire time, and NO ONE else was even phased or taken aback by it. It was 100% awful! I didn't understand why I was the only one upset. This pig seriously looked like babe and it was only a fetus, it didn't even have a chance to live! It still had an ambilical cord. And it did not help that ours was the cutest, they were all wrinkly or white or disfigured but ours was perfect, like he would've been the cutest little pig and you could see where he would've had little black spots. No one cared. No one... at all. I just sat there for 2 hours trying to catch my tears before they showed, sitting there trying not to barf, watching my freinds prod and stick and cut and sew labels into it. I could tell that our pig had something special, he would've been a super pig or something I could just tell, and his little baby pig tounge was out, and the worst part is I'm going to have to do this to cats and stuff, I don't want to. I just want to skip to the part where I know everything and can just sit in the jungle watching the animals in their natural habitat, moving on to a new animal and place every couple of years or so. Just learning, but not this way, it's soooo savage! I hate it I hate it I hate it sorry for having a freaking heart! I got that awful feeling in my stomache like when my aunt esther died. I haven't had that feeling in 3 years. I hated it, I hate death, I hate cold lifeless bodies, especially ones that haven't lived and were just wasted, that had no purpose in life, just in death. I hate death I hate it! Dude and someone freaking said I can't wait to dissect humans! I HATE ITTTT!