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Seriously don't read farther than this, for here lies a tale of teen angst.
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maybe im blowing this out of proportion, im probably over reacting but im gonna express how i feel despite how inchorent and rambling it is.
look im more hurt than mad, and i dont see how you can ask me not to be. you pretty much led me on, you told me you wanted me back and i believed it, i hoped it would happen to tell you the truth. i really wanted it to happen but then you show me something telling him that hes the ONLY one you want. you even put an emphasis on only. so what did u expect from me? then telling me you dont know who you want? you pretty clearly stated it earlier. so of course im going to be pissed off and really hurt. im honestly not as pissed off as i thought i would be but i guess that goes to show something.
you basically told me on the phone that i was holding second place to him when we went out , but now apparently thats not true. i dont know what to believe at this point. hell maybe you're just confused about it yourself but i KNOW i am. whats even worse is that (wow thisll sound conceited) you're in love with the guy who basically just wants play for whatever reason, even if he does love you deep down it seems like thats his main priority.
we got close because he cheated on you and i was there for you through it and we became friends because of that. o dear lord the irony that would later come. you told me many times that if i didnt want to be in the relationship then "dont lead you on". then whyd you do it to me? even now you tell me that you want to go out with me later, but AFTER you go out with him. what sense does that make? you're planning another relationship after this one with him even though it hasnt even started yet. and i guess im the backup plan. If plan A fails ooh well matts still there, ill just go out with him then. yea well im not your second place trophy, im not your backup plan, believe it or not im a fucking human being, treat me like one. i loved being your friend and more than that and you say you want it back how it was when we went out? yea but i guess thats just your backup plan. and well fuck that.
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maybe im blowing this out of proportion, im probably over reacting but im gonna express how i feel despite how inchorent and rambling it is.
look im more hurt than mad, and i dont see how you can ask me not to be. you pretty much led me on, you told me you wanted me back and i believed it, i hoped it would happen to tell you the truth. i really wanted it to happen but then you show me something telling him that hes the ONLY one you want. you even put an emphasis on only. so what did u expect from me? then telling me you dont know who you want? you pretty clearly stated it earlier. so of course im going to be pissed off and really hurt. im honestly not as pissed off as i thought i would be but i guess that goes to show something.
you basically told me on the phone that i was holding second place to him when we went out , but now apparently thats not true. i dont know what to believe at this point. hell maybe you're just confused about it yourself but i KNOW i am. whats even worse is that (wow thisll sound conceited) you're in love with the guy who basically just wants play for whatever reason, even if he does love you deep down it seems like thats his main priority.
we got close because he cheated on you and i was there for you through it and we became friends because of that. o dear lord the irony that would later come. you told me many times that if i didnt want to be in the relationship then "dont lead you on". then whyd you do it to me? even now you tell me that you want to go out with me later, but AFTER you go out with him. what sense does that make? you're planning another relationship after this one with him even though it hasnt even started yet. and i guess im the backup plan. If plan A fails ooh well matts still there, ill just go out with him then. yea well im not your second place trophy, im not your backup plan, believe it or not im a fucking human being, treat me like one. i loved being your friend and more than that and you say you want it back how it was when we went out? yea but i guess thats just your backup plan. and well fuck that.