COMPLETELY TORN
I was sitting one day, reading actually when my mother approached me and I was like 'hey I want to buy this novel that has just come out' and my mother sarcastically replied 'Great, when you're getting married I don't need to buy you things anymore, I'll just bring you all your novels and mangas and just everything you read'. And then I realized something.
What a fool I have been!
If some of you even remember when I initially took pharmacy at University and stayed for a year before I switched to dentistry. I'm on my 3rd year now and I am seriously considering career changing. Well, not exactly career, major changing.
All this time, I don't know, I don't dislike dentistry but I don't think I put my heart fully on it. I work really hard but that's because my pride can't accept failure. I'm just too proud to let myself fail. And yes, maybe I do enjoy it a bit but after that conversation I finally realized that I might not love the major at all. I just like it, but not loving it.
I just...I don't know, I realize that all this time it's already in there but I didn't realize it. I want to be a book editor. And ever since I realize that I can't stop thinking about it. I'm completely torn because I'm not getting any younger and It's such a shame (and stupid) if I have to throw my dentistry study and take literature instead but I don't know, I can't stop thinking about it. The best solution would be doing both a.k.a I'll continue with dentistry but I'll take literature as well but I don't know, the idea seems great but I don't want to take literature in my place because I don't think that it's really developing here in Indonesia so I would love to move somewhere else but what about my dentistry degree?
*sigh* I'm torn.
But first thing first, I'm actually doing these few editing (sort-of) job as a freelance and I haven't actually told my parents about that but anyway, I guess it might be a good start, right? I'll just see what I'll do later, I guess :)
What a fool I have been!
If some of you even remember when I initially took pharmacy at University and stayed for a year before I switched to dentistry. I'm on my 3rd year now and I am seriously considering career changing. Well, not exactly career, major changing.
All this time, I don't know, I don't dislike dentistry but I don't think I put my heart fully on it. I work really hard but that's because my pride can't accept failure. I'm just too proud to let myself fail. And yes, maybe I do enjoy it a bit but after that conversation I finally realized that I might not love the major at all. I just like it, but not loving it.
I just...I don't know, I realize that all this time it's already in there but I didn't realize it. I want to be a book editor. And ever since I realize that I can't stop thinking about it. I'm completely torn because I'm not getting any younger and It's such a shame (and stupid) if I have to throw my dentistry study and take literature instead but I don't know, I can't stop thinking about it. The best solution would be doing both a.k.a I'll continue with dentistry but I'll take literature as well but I don't know, the idea seems great but I don't want to take literature in my place because I don't think that it's really developing here in Indonesia so I would love to move somewhere else but what about my dentistry degree?
*sigh* I'm torn.
But first thing first, I'm actually doing these few editing (sort-of) job as a freelance and I haven't actually told my parents about that but anyway, I guess it might be a good start, right? I'll just see what I'll do later, I guess :)