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Last night was an absolute fiasco.
I'm astounded still.
Now apparently he wants to dye his hair.
Whom am I to dictate colour - that's not what I care about. Only that it suddenly happens after speaking in length with a friend. We never talk, and hair colour is something that I'd be happy to listen to and am reasonably qualified to talk about (given that my hair has been every colour of the rainbow).
So why now?
It makes me suspicious.
Why now after talking and getting drunk with this friend?
I don't have that happen with my friends, neither do my friends have that happen with their friends.
Am I missing a massive gap between age groups?
Have friendship norms changed?
Am I too stuck in Gender mores and gender roles to feel comfortable with this?
Is it something more, because it's what I'd do if something was going on?
I don't get it. There's all this stuff, all these things that we could talk about, but is it perceived that i'm so unreceptive to him talking to me about it that he has to go to friends to talk about this stuff?
We couldn't even hold a conversation for 5 minutes tonight.
I'm hoping that the camping trip will renew my faith in our relationship.
I'm saying to myself that if nothing happens I'll probably attempt to end our relationship after the camping trip, but I think i'm too much of a wuss to do so.
Nor would I be able to deal with the fallout.
We'll see. I'll try and have a bit of faith in my man, jealous as I am that the best friend has everything from him (minus the sex) that I want.
I'm astounded still.
Now apparently he wants to dye his hair.
Whom am I to dictate colour - that's not what I care about. Only that it suddenly happens after speaking in length with a friend. We never talk, and hair colour is something that I'd be happy to listen to and am reasonably qualified to talk about (given that my hair has been every colour of the rainbow).
So why now?
It makes me suspicious.
Why now after talking and getting drunk with this friend?
I don't have that happen with my friends, neither do my friends have that happen with their friends.
Am I missing a massive gap between age groups?
Have friendship norms changed?
Am I too stuck in Gender mores and gender roles to feel comfortable with this?
Is it something more, because it's what I'd do if something was going on?
I don't get it. There's all this stuff, all these things that we could talk about, but is it perceived that i'm so unreceptive to him talking to me about it that he has to go to friends to talk about this stuff?
We couldn't even hold a conversation for 5 minutes tonight.
I'm hoping that the camping trip will renew my faith in our relationship.
I'm saying to myself that if nothing happens I'll probably attempt to end our relationship after the camping trip, but I think i'm too much of a wuss to do so.
Nor would I be able to deal with the fallout.
We'll see. I'll try and have a bit of faith in my man, jealous as I am that the best friend has everything from him (minus the sex) that I want.