Choices
Life is full of choices. Once you made a choice, you gotta bear the consequences and enjoy the rewards. Easy right?
Somehow we humans have a big tendency to avoid the consequences. We become creative in taking shortcuts. We argue, complain, drop names, throw $& etc etc just to avoid pain, the drudgery of life, boredom. You get a sense of what I'm trying to say.
I'm not any different. I find myself retracting promises more often than ever. I regretted committing to this relationship. I wished that I never agreed to help that slacker. I wish I didn't eat that KFC 3 piece chicken meal. And McNugget. And Nasi Lemak. You get what I'm saying.
When I gym, I find myself not focusing on the correct technique when I'm tired. The end result: a less effective gym session. Did I grow? Not as much as I can. That's why I still didn't strip in the club. The lard on me will cause clubbers of 50m radius around ma to suffer Auto-Vomit Syndrome.
Once I agree to be serious with someone. After agreeing, I regretted. I felt torturous. The woes of being tied down made me miserable. I bailed out 1 week later. Such a bastard I am. No wonder people called me douce bag and/or jerk.
After going through all these failures & bad decisions, I learn more abt myself. I learn that I need to Pre-empt myself to push on when the tough get going. I learn that I need to speak up in a relationship. So what if the r/s is gone after airing my views? At least I have expressed myself. We have agreed to disagree and parted based on that reasoning. That's a better deal than suffering in silence.
I learn that I have many choices in life. I learn that if I eat that piece of KFC chicken, I need to be willing to pay for the price. My dinner so far has been broccoli & subway sandwiches. So far I like the hard-ons I get from the broccoli. Shall have double portion Tmr.
Ciao
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