In Pursuit of Winning
Dear reader,
You should be shocked to hear from this writer again. He has not been penning his thoughts for quite a while. Then again, has he penned his real thoughts out in the 1st place?
This writer has been busily stabilizing his life in these 2 years. After 2 job changes, he has a glimpse what a career can be and should not be. He has intensified his commitment towards coaching and managing the coaches. Wonder what caused a commitment-phob like him to take on such responsibilities.
He has definitely changed, for better or worse, it is undecided. Mellowed is an exact term. I guess it must be from the hurt and traumas that the writer has gone through in that 2 years after his university graduation. The disillusion he has to cope with; the realization of his own weaknesses and incompetency; the cost he has to pay for paying attention to his ego and for living out his fantasy in a world where success comes from pure hard work are just a glimpse of what the writer went through.
Yet, he is still aware of his usual mind-fuck tactics; his enigmatic side; destructive side being present in him relating to his world. What he has yet experience is the effects it created on others.
After some major failures, the writer's will broken, dreams shattered and forgotten what creation is. He decided to exchange his fantasy world for a reality check. He is like a wounded lion, healing his deep wounds. This lion remembers.
In the healing, this lion tell itself never to repeat the same mistake again; to kill when needed; to be compassionate to the worthy; to walk away from a war that is doomed to fail; to hide when needed. In all, the lion learn how to protect itself from the treachery of the world.
In the last year, the writer struggled with acceptance of what reality is; of what hard work means; of the real aims of dreams and the journey to turn dreams into reality. In that journey, he learnt what facing his own demons entails. He saw how he ran away from his past, his ghosts and his personal journey. Now, he is not a better man for he has yet walked his own path and confront his own demons.
What this writer is aware is the journey looming ahead. Maybe, my dear reader, when you read the next entry, he has walked his path; the one he abandoned for the fear of responsibility, hardship and pain. Yet, this writer still remember his past and the wounds he suffered. He ensures that such failures will never happen before. Like the healed lion, he will strike, keeping lessons he learn in mind, with greater accuracy and precision, for the win.
You should be shocked to hear from this writer again. He has not been penning his thoughts for quite a while. Then again, has he penned his real thoughts out in the 1st place?
This writer has been busily stabilizing his life in these 2 years. After 2 job changes, he has a glimpse what a career can be and should not be. He has intensified his commitment towards coaching and managing the coaches. Wonder what caused a commitment-phob like him to take on such responsibilities.
He has definitely changed, for better or worse, it is undecided. Mellowed is an exact term. I guess it must be from the hurt and traumas that the writer has gone through in that 2 years after his university graduation. The disillusion he has to cope with; the realization of his own weaknesses and incompetency; the cost he has to pay for paying attention to his ego and for living out his fantasy in a world where success comes from pure hard work are just a glimpse of what the writer went through.
Yet, he is still aware of his usual mind-fuck tactics; his enigmatic side; destructive side being present in him relating to his world. What he has yet experience is the effects it created on others.
After some major failures, the writer's will broken, dreams shattered and forgotten what creation is. He decided to exchange his fantasy world for a reality check. He is like a wounded lion, healing his deep wounds. This lion remembers.
In the healing, this lion tell itself never to repeat the same mistake again; to kill when needed; to be compassionate to the worthy; to walk away from a war that is doomed to fail; to hide when needed. In all, the lion learn how to protect itself from the treachery of the world.
In the last year, the writer struggled with acceptance of what reality is; of what hard work means; of the real aims of dreams and the journey to turn dreams into reality. In that journey, he learnt what facing his own demons entails. He saw how he ran away from his past, his ghosts and his personal journey. Now, he is not a better man for he has yet walked his own path and confront his own demons.
What this writer is aware is the journey looming ahead. Maybe, my dear reader, when you read the next entry, he has walked his path; the one he abandoned for the fear of responsibility, hardship and pain. Yet, this writer still remember his past and the wounds he suffered. He ensures that such failures will never happen before. Like the healed lion, he will strike, keeping lessons he learn in mind, with greater accuracy and precision, for the win.