Realizations and time wasting on a Monday afternoon...
So the Pour House cafe is closing in Westminster on Wednesday. I was already planning on going to town tomorrow, I may be going tonight as well, just to see the place again and enjoy it before it closes it's doors for good. God, so much of my life over the last four years was lived on that back patio, or in those comfy chairs, or around the cafe tables in the back room. Every break up I've had since Jay, I've celebrated my singledom with coffee and friends. I introduced Q to Vince there, I reconnected with Christian there, I met Trey and Jess and Laurie and Moose and Doug and Mark and so many other people there for the first time. It's the old stomping ground, where loves were kindled and burnt so fast and bright and hot that you knew they couldn't last, and yet they were so beautiful, you couldn't help but want more.
And they make the best Caramel Macchiato on the planet.
I can't believe I'm not going to sit on those chairs next summer in the heat of the night, sipping too much coffee, before going out to the municipal parking lot to talk until the sun comes up. Granted, I didn't really do that this summer, or much the summer before, but I always had the option to go back, to go home, and know that someone would be there. Maybe not the person I went to see, but someone from the crowd would be there, because one of us was always there. And now, I can't go back. I won't have that option available to me, and it's sad. I could honestly cry, just because some store on main street is closing. It's not like there won't be something else to take it's place, and I know that, but it won't be the same. Where will we congregate, when we have news to share, and need a space big enough to house us all? Where will we go when we don't want to go to the bars or the pubs, but want something delicious and not ridiculously expensive? And what am I going to do with all those java jackets in my car?!?
"Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are.
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start. "
And they make the best Caramel Macchiato on the planet.
I can't believe I'm not going to sit on those chairs next summer in the heat of the night, sipping too much coffee, before going out to the municipal parking lot to talk until the sun comes up. Granted, I didn't really do that this summer, or much the summer before, but I always had the option to go back, to go home, and know that someone would be there. Maybe not the person I went to see, but someone from the crowd would be there, because one of us was always there. And now, I can't go back. I won't have that option available to me, and it's sad. I could honestly cry, just because some store on main street is closing. It's not like there won't be something else to take it's place, and I know that, but it won't be the same. Where will we congregate, when we have news to share, and need a space big enough to house us all? Where will we go when we don't want to go to the bars or the pubs, but want something delicious and not ridiculously expensive? And what am I going to do with all those java jackets in my car?!?
"Come up to meet ya, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need ya
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me, and come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
coming back as we are.
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy.
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start. "