I'm a human, not a sandwich
I haven't posted for a whole week, not that anyone noticed, so I guess it's update time XD
It's been a pretty busy week at work, we are getting a new program for our database, so there is stuff constantly disappearing from it and people have to get the data back in manually... I'm actually really happy about having a lot of work - organising data is the kind of work I like most, and having something to do makes me feel useful and a valuable member of society XD
And our computer dude at work actually complimented me at how well I understand the new system and what a pleasure it is to work with somebody who takes this work seriously (apparently me and our purchase manager were the only ones who actually tried the new program while it was still in the test phase, and everyone was supposed to test it). Maybe I should have taken a degree in computer science XD
I'm visiting my religious relative in Oldenburg this Saturday. It's her husband's birthday so it's not exactly the best time, there will probably be people there... But she invited me, and it's sort of the right thing to do to visit relatives, I did live with her for quite some time last year. So I guess I'll spend my Saturday being a nice relative XD
I told my grandmother I would be going there, and she was like 'oh, great, maybe that will be your chance to finally meet someone! Don't you dare fall asleep on the train, you must socialise!' I said I'm not interested in meeting people, especially in meeting 'someone' aka the other half (what does that mean, I'm only half a person or what) and socialising, although I'm not sure why I even bother telling her that, she never listens.
You know, all in all, I prefer to be understood rather than loved. My grandmother constantly claims she loves me, but she is the most annoying relative that I have. If you have been reading my LJ for long enough, I needn't tell you why XDD My mother, in comparison - I can't recall a single time when she told me she loved me, but she is just about my most favourite relative (well, maybe except my brother because we hardly ever talk and he definitely has never tried to tell me what I should do with my life) because she understands that I'm too lazy to cook and clean and go out, and I would rather spend all day sleeping, and she doesn't nag at me when I do just that. That's because she is the same XDD
Talking about meeting 'someone', this dude I've been messaging with, that was a real laugh. At first he was like, 'omg you're so cool, we are totally soulmates, we have so much in common!' Then I showed him my photo and he was like 'ok, you're not my type, but I am still totally interested!' And then I explained I'm not planning to have sex with him immediately. And he was like 'oh, well, I don't really like you and we have nothing in common anyway, so let's not message anymore'. Why do I even bother trying, really. But now I think that maybe I shouldn't really refused, at least I would have got laid, that's a rare chance.
It's stupid to think that one should only have sex when there are some sort of feelings or whatever, I only have feelings towards computers, cakes, cats and Katsura XD Haha, if I could ever feel so many feelings towards a human like I do towards the above-mentioned, there would be no question of to sex or not to sex. But I don't, and I can't remember whether I have ever found somebody sexually attractive. How does that even feel to find people attractive? Is it like wanting to touch them or something of the kind? I don't generally want to touch people. Unless they are being nice to me. Then I want to hug them. Unless they are old or smell funny.
Oh well, never mind about that. Let's talk about anime! I tried some more series from the spring season.
Sakamichi no Apollon was really cute, it seems like it will be a very touching story about love and friendship. I sure hope there will be a happy end. I mean, I read the manga a bit, not much of it has been scanlated yet, but it's not clear whether it will have a happy end. I like the characters, I want them all to be happy.
Shirokuma Cafe was kind of cute, but the damn Panda made me feel so butthurt XDD I guess it reminded me of my unemployed days when I was just lying around all day while being bullied by my relatives XD But I had a degree and couldn't find a job for ages, while the stupid Panda doesn't have any skills, and got a job where he basically gets money for nothing! Lol, ok, difference between reality and anime, I should realise it and stop being butthurt. XD
Ginga e Kickoff! was actually pretty neat. Or it would have been, if it were not for the fact that it's about little kids. Like, very little kids. If they were some 5 years older, it would have been a cool story, but being like this it's kind of not my thing. And the art style is really childish. But I will still give the second episode a try, maybe it won't be so bad and I'll get used to the art. Also, at first the OP song seemed so horrible that I skipped it right away. Now I listened to it again, and it's still bad, but not as much.
Still haven't managed to see Space Brothers, but I'm planning to.
It's been a pretty busy week at work, we are getting a new program for our database, so there is stuff constantly disappearing from it and people have to get the data back in manually... I'm actually really happy about having a lot of work - organising data is the kind of work I like most, and having something to do makes me feel useful and a valuable member of society XD
And our computer dude at work actually complimented me at how well I understand the new system and what a pleasure it is to work with somebody who takes this work seriously (apparently me and our purchase manager were the only ones who actually tried the new program while it was still in the test phase, and everyone was supposed to test it). Maybe I should have taken a degree in computer science XD
I'm visiting my religious relative in Oldenburg this Saturday. It's her husband's birthday so it's not exactly the best time, there will probably be people there... But she invited me, and it's sort of the right thing to do to visit relatives, I did live with her for quite some time last year. So I guess I'll spend my Saturday being a nice relative XD
I told my grandmother I would be going there, and she was like 'oh, great, maybe that will be your chance to finally meet someone! Don't you dare fall asleep on the train, you must socialise!' I said I'm not interested in meeting people, especially in meeting 'someone' aka the other half (what does that mean, I'm only half a person or what) and socialising, although I'm not sure why I even bother telling her that, she never listens.
You know, all in all, I prefer to be understood rather than loved. My grandmother constantly claims she loves me, but she is the most annoying relative that I have. If you have been reading my LJ for long enough, I needn't tell you why XDD My mother, in comparison - I can't recall a single time when she told me she loved me, but she is just about my most favourite relative (well, maybe except my brother because we hardly ever talk and he definitely has never tried to tell me what I should do with my life) because she understands that I'm too lazy to cook and clean and go out, and I would rather spend all day sleeping, and she doesn't nag at me when I do just that. That's because she is the same XDD
Talking about meeting 'someone', this dude I've been messaging with, that was a real laugh. At first he was like, 'omg you're so cool, we are totally soulmates, we have so much in common!' Then I showed him my photo and he was like 'ok, you're not my type, but I am still totally interested!' And then I explained I'm not planning to have sex with him immediately. And he was like 'oh, well, I don't really like you and we have nothing in common anyway, so let's not message anymore'. Why do I even bother trying, really. But now I think that maybe I shouldn't really refused, at least I would have got laid, that's a rare chance.
It's stupid to think that one should only have sex when there are some sort of feelings or whatever, I only have feelings towards computers, cakes, cats and Katsura XD Haha, if I could ever feel so many feelings towards a human like I do towards the above-mentioned, there would be no question of to sex or not to sex. But I don't, and I can't remember whether I have ever found somebody sexually attractive. How does that even feel to find people attractive? Is it like wanting to touch them or something of the kind? I don't generally want to touch people. Unless they are being nice to me. Then I want to hug them. Unless they are old or smell funny.
Oh well, never mind about that. Let's talk about anime! I tried some more series from the spring season.
Sakamichi no Apollon was really cute, it seems like it will be a very touching story about love and friendship. I sure hope there will be a happy end. I mean, I read the manga a bit, not much of it has been scanlated yet, but it's not clear whether it will have a happy end. I like the characters, I want them all to be happy.
Shirokuma Cafe was kind of cute, but the damn Panda made me feel so butthurt XDD I guess it reminded me of my unemployed days when I was just lying around all day while being bullied by my relatives XD But I had a degree and couldn't find a job for ages, while the stupid Panda doesn't have any skills, and got a job where he basically gets money for nothing! Lol, ok, difference between reality and anime, I should realise it and stop being butthurt. XD
Ginga e Kickoff! was actually pretty neat. Or it would have been, if it were not for the fact that it's about little kids. Like, very little kids. If they were some 5 years older, it would have been a cool story, but being like this it's kind of not my thing. And the art style is really childish. But I will still give the second episode a try, maybe it won't be so bad and I'll get used to the art. Also, at first the OP song seemed so horrible that I skipped it right away. Now I listened to it again, and it's still bad, but not as much.
Still haven't managed to see Space Brothers, but I'm planning to.