I like the universe, but she messes with my words
I think I want to join the peace corps. I realized, while mowing my lawn, that I just love helping people. My job is amazing because I get to help someone and watch them benefit and know the joy they receive. Just making someone's day better makes me feel like I have purpose in life. What better than that specifically being my job and going somewhere where they truly need help? I wouldn't have to deal with all the politics of a buisness type job and everyone I'd work with is passionate about what they're doing. The thought is absolutely amazing. Doing that for the rest of my life would probably make me happy. Downside is I would like someone to be there with me. I'm sure I'd meet amazing people but if I had one person, significant other or just close friend, everything would be so much easier to transition and I'd get into things much better. It would be amazing, that's the only way to describe it. I've got another month and a half to decide what I'm going to do with my life. I wish I could keep working at my job, but the trainer will come back and I'll have to leave. So much of my life I've been told that I have to go to college and that's how I'll succeed and I feel like a failure if I don't. Yet, I'm supportive of other people not doing it if that's what they're passionate about. I just wish I had a year to try things out and determine what I really want to do without blowing it along the way. College can wait, but so could peace corps or anything else. I'm finally opening my eyes to the world and seeing what I can do, but I'm out of time to decide.
This is why I love mowing my lawn.
"But I just need to say goodbye
To all the metaphors and lies
That have taken me years to come up with."
"Everybody's Changing" by Keane
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
This is why I love mowing my lawn.
"But I just need to say goodbye
To all the metaphors and lies
That have taken me years to come up with."
"Everybody's Changing" by Keane
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same