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[dennonite]

I'm rather frusterated with life (who isn't) but, this year has started off worse than all of last year. It saddens me to watch my friends and the ones i care about misjudge me. I don't let most people into my life anymore, therefore, they don't know who i really am and what goes on in my head. Its tough not being able to let people see who i really am, because i really do love people and i value my friends more than anything; but there needs to be a level of trust before i really open up any more. I've been hurt too many times, and after summer, trusting someone is virtually impossible. The couple people left i feel i can trust have disappeared- buried in work and/or school, or with their new boyfriend/girlfriend. tonight was nice, because even though i drove in the snow at 3 am to help her cuz she was in a ditch; by the time i got there she had already been pulled out and on her way. But we were able to talk and i was able to establish that i miss her friendship and now we're supposedly hanging out next week and hopefully i can get at least one of my good friends back.

i've vented and now im retiring to that place i go to sleep every night - oh yeah, thats my bed.