Bits, odds and whatnot: limbo......
According to Wikipedia, one of the definitions of limbo is: "any status where a person is held up, and nothing can be done until another action happens."
Today, as I sat listening to one of the teachers who will be giving the course with me next Monday (you know the one, the one my boss "signed me up for without even asking" but which is totally okay because that sort of stuff happens everyday in a job), and it hit me. It was something that was nagging me since yesterday, when I graded my students' midterm exams and graded one abysmal exam after the next. I am in limbo, at least in my professional life. This teacher had all these reasons as to why she does this and that in her classroom and how this and that helps her students and whatnot and all I could think about was: ......................... Seriously, when she asked my about my teaching methods I would've looked like those comedians who hear something funny and spit whatever they are drinking. For the life of my I couldn't think of any decent answer, so I just said: "I sort of just go through pages of the book and hope to finish the unit by the end of the week?" Well, I may have coated it some but that was the gist of it. Yeah, I sometimes use other resources for my classes but not because they are based on some educational theory but because it just makes more sense, and because my creative mind started working and suddenly an idea popped up.
I am in limbo. Because I don't have the drive to really commit to this job, nor I have the courage to really put myself out there and do what I want to do. I'm stuck, and I'm too afraid to go out there and find that action that will push me out of my limbo state and into happiness and fulfillment.
Enough for tonight.........sweet dreams.
Today, as I sat listening to one of the teachers who will be giving the course with me next Monday (you know the one, the one my boss "signed me up for without even asking" but which is totally okay because that sort of stuff happens everyday in a job), and it hit me. It was something that was nagging me since yesterday, when I graded my students' midterm exams and graded one abysmal exam after the next. I am in limbo, at least in my professional life. This teacher had all these reasons as to why she does this and that in her classroom and how this and that helps her students and whatnot and all I could think about was: ......................... Seriously, when she asked my about my teaching methods I would've looked like those comedians who hear something funny and spit whatever they are drinking. For the life of my I couldn't think of any decent answer, so I just said: "I sort of just go through pages of the book and hope to finish the unit by the end of the week?" Well, I may have coated it some but that was the gist of it. Yeah, I sometimes use other resources for my classes but not because they are based on some educational theory but because it just makes more sense, and because my creative mind started working and suddenly an idea popped up.
I am in limbo. Because I don't have the drive to really commit to this job, nor I have the courage to really put myself out there and do what I want to do. I'm stuck, and I'm too afraid to go out there and find that action that will push me out of my limbo state and into happiness and fulfillment.
Enough for tonight.........sweet dreams.