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something about this time of year!! every year.
Its always a few weeks from christmas and i get depressed. it just kicks in..like a bad night of heartburn. i was sitting at work and it just came for no reason! i was sad and wanted to just crawl up and cry. theres no reason for it, or atleast i dont think but damn. christmas isnt supposed to be this way! and today, i was the ONLY one out of my family of five( actually 7 including jonathan and nate) who put up the christmas tree! all by myself! i tore up my hands from putting on the lights, and the end result? half the fuckers didnt even work. I couldnt beleive it. all my dad said was "oh...well im sick of doing it." well sorry. i forgot that having a christmas tree isnt a big deal anymore. it used to be family tradition to all put it up and decorate it, but how bad has it become?
I was almost in tears, so jonathan came over(he always rescues me i swear) and he fixed the problem with the lights for me. it made me feel a little better, plus the fact that i got to see him, and tommorow. i cant wait for this weekend thats for sure. just me and my baby balooga <3 i miss that man already and its only been an hour.
anyway, i need everyones address so i can send out some christmas cards. I'll put the comments on private so that way i can be the only one to read them(and ur addy isnt on the net) ps...thanks Denise from texas for the wonderful idea, and yes i do still have your address! thanks everyone, hope all is well.
till next time
Its always a few weeks from christmas and i get depressed. it just kicks in..like a bad night of heartburn. i was sitting at work and it just came for no reason! i was sad and wanted to just crawl up and cry. theres no reason for it, or atleast i dont think but damn. christmas isnt supposed to be this way! and today, i was the ONLY one out of my family of five( actually 7 including jonathan and nate) who put up the christmas tree! all by myself! i tore up my hands from putting on the lights, and the end result? half the fuckers didnt even work. I couldnt beleive it. all my dad said was "oh...well im sick of doing it." well sorry. i forgot that having a christmas tree isnt a big deal anymore. it used to be family tradition to all put it up and decorate it, but how bad has it become?
I was almost in tears, so jonathan came over(he always rescues me i swear) and he fixed the problem with the lights for me. it made me feel a little better, plus the fact that i got to see him, and tommorow. i cant wait for this weekend thats for sure. just me and my baby balooga <3 i miss that man already and its only been an hour.
anyway, i need everyones address so i can send out some christmas cards. I'll put the comments on private so that way i can be the only one to read them(and ur addy isnt on the net) ps...thanks Denise from texas for the wonderful idea, and yes i do still have your address! thanks everyone, hope all is well.
till next time