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yesturday, around 2:00 pm another life was brought into this world. stevens mom finally had her baby. she was on labor for 2 days and we had been at the hospital all night and all day. while at the hospital there was nothing to do but shit there and wait... and think. i thought about a lot of things. i thought about how one little person could change everyones lives in such big ways. i thought about life an dhow hard it was for cris to have that baby and th eone she had lost before. most importantly i thought about how when things this huge and amazing and wonderful happens how meaningless and stupid everything else in this world can be. theres better more important things to worry about then whos talking about you, who dosent like you, or whats going on with the people around you. there are much more important htings to worry about... like life.
this little guy that can not speak, he can not walk, who cant even sit up has tought me more about life then i ever thought i would know. i came to a lot of conclusions in that waiting room at the hospital. im going to make a lot of life changing decisions soon, and ive are started to make some. im going to make changes in my life that might effect some peopel in positive and negitive ways because osmethings are just not worth anything anymore. theyre just not important enough to deal with or get worked up over anymore. like i said there are many more important things to worry about; this child has his whole life ahead of him. he has a whole new life to live now.
now that ive realized everything i feel much more at peace with myself and everyone and everything around me. im sorry to the people ive been mean to and fought with. im sorry if ive ever said anything bad to anyone to hurt there feelings. i forgive everyone who has done the same.
for now on things are going to be different.
for now on im going to start paying attention to what matters the most to me in live, and my happiness...
its time to start carrying about things that are important to me.
for now on... i want to live.
this little guy that can not speak, he can not walk, who cant even sit up has tought me more about life then i ever thought i would know. i came to a lot of conclusions in that waiting room at the hospital. im going to make a lot of life changing decisions soon, and ive are started to make some. im going to make changes in my life that might effect some peopel in positive and negitive ways because osmethings are just not worth anything anymore. theyre just not important enough to deal with or get worked up over anymore. like i said there are many more important things to worry about; this child has his whole life ahead of him. he has a whole new life to live now.
now that ive realized everything i feel much more at peace with myself and everyone and everything around me. im sorry to the people ive been mean to and fought with. im sorry if ive ever said anything bad to anyone to hurt there feelings. i forgive everyone who has done the same.
for now on things are going to be different.
for now on im going to start paying attention to what matters the most to me in live, and my happiness...
its time to start carrying about things that are important to me.
for now on... i want to live.