think i get it
I learned at a very early age what it was to 'step out' in front of people. My athletic urges got the best of me and when I stepped out from where the rest of the girls played to play/compete with the boys it was scary but exhilarating. I wanted to be the one and only girl out there playing and BEATING the boys. My teacher praised my athletic prowess/competitiveness and that felt great. But, I also got the odd vibes from fellow students. Like, I broke the rules of being a girl type thing. How dare I peg boys w/ the dodgeball w/ just as much vigor as they to me.
As silly as this may sound...I'm thinking that these early experiences have probably shaped my entire life up to this point.
It's a bit dare devilish. From trying coke to doing e to getting involved w/ straight women to being a lesbian working for a godamn Christian publishing co...I've never been able to refuse 'something new'. It's not until I become invested into something do I question that first decision to say 'yes'.
I believe this is how I'm wired. I'm excited. I like this.
As silly as this may sound...I'm thinking that these early experiences have probably shaped my entire life up to this point.
It's a bit dare devilish. From trying coke to doing e to getting involved w/ straight women to being a lesbian working for a godamn Christian publishing co...I've never been able to refuse 'something new'. It's not until I become invested into something do I question that first decision to say 'yes'.
I believe this is how I'm wired. I'm excited. I like this.