me and alfred
it seems that we might both be at a checkpoint in life. He tells me that he needs a vacation when he gets back. Right now a "vacation" for he and I is defined by Friday, Sat, Sun, and come back on Monday. The almighty dollar not allowing us to really get away the way we want to.
But without saying, I know he needs to take a time out. It's like watching your team out there and they're trying pretty darn hard but keep getting beat by the other team both smarter and quicker. As a coach, you would put up a big "T" and call for a full Timeout! Gather your players, reassure them that they can win, refocus them on the plays, on a plan of action and slap their backsides as they drudge themselves onto the court for one more go at it.
-OR-
This could be a "I don't know what the hell is going on, I'm tired of trying to plan, figure out, compromise, calculate, etc. I'm just going to sit and drink my cold Corona and enjoy the breeze. A REAL TIME OUT.
I can't help but feel a bit more jaded a bit more wiser a bit more callus a bit more, period. Why have I defined my life thus far w/ the relationships I've been in. I'm discovering personal relationships are not the be all end all of SHIT! Why I've subscribed so diligently to the notion is embarrassing.
I think from here on out...and maybe I'm doing this because I'm now all of sudden around lots of little ones (neices and newphews and new borns)...I am just enjoying people as people. Just as themselves. Flaws and all. No more expectations, no more figuring them out...if I like you well enough...let's toast and not worry about the details.
Am I heading towards a spinster life? Kinda feels that way.
So be it....
But without saying, I know he needs to take a time out. It's like watching your team out there and they're trying pretty darn hard but keep getting beat by the other team both smarter and quicker. As a coach, you would put up a big "T" and call for a full Timeout! Gather your players, reassure them that they can win, refocus them on the plays, on a plan of action and slap their backsides as they drudge themselves onto the court for one more go at it.
-OR-
This could be a "I don't know what the hell is going on, I'm tired of trying to plan, figure out, compromise, calculate, etc. I'm just going to sit and drink my cold Corona and enjoy the breeze. A REAL TIME OUT.
I can't help but feel a bit more jaded a bit more wiser a bit more callus a bit more, period. Why have I defined my life thus far w/ the relationships I've been in. I'm discovering personal relationships are not the be all end all of SHIT! Why I've subscribed so diligently to the notion is embarrassing.
I think from here on out...and maybe I'm doing this because I'm now all of sudden around lots of little ones (neices and newphews and new borns)...I am just enjoying people as people. Just as themselves. Flaws and all. No more expectations, no more figuring them out...if I like you well enough...let's toast and not worry about the details.
Am I heading towards a spinster life? Kinda feels that way.
So be it....