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Fuck lately. It's been depressing as fuck. I feel so alone and unheard, abandoned and unwanted. When did this ever begin to happen to me? When did I just become a shadow of my former self to such a deprecating point? I don't feel the juice, the vigor, the energy that was me, I feel as though a shell, of exhaustion, depression, pointlessness has replaced that. If I knew how to get it back, it's just what is "it" that I lost. I'm not really sure anymore, or if I can even get it back.
There are times I get so fucking stressed out I'm screaming, crying out, and just I'm ignored. My concerns don't matter, nothing matters. After all we're all just dust in the wind. Nothing matters, and anything that I do or say to 'anyone' or 'anything' in the long haul won't mean jack shit, and I could care less even if it did. It's just all over, and I have to realize and accept that reality.
There are times I get so fucking stressed out I'm screaming, crying out, and just I'm ignored. My concerns don't matter, nothing matters. After all we're all just dust in the wind. Nothing matters, and anything that I do or say to 'anyone' or 'anything' in the long haul won't mean jack shit, and I could care less even if it did. It's just all over, and I have to realize and accept that reality.