Burnout
Fuck. I don't really talk to anyone on here, and have not done for sometime.
I can't describe so trivially what I'm feeling right now. Depression, anxiety, exhaustion?
Moderation - I do not have it.
So for the last few months I've been focusing my time energies, technical know-how, and experiences, to an online game. Yes, this is the world of warcraft. My Wow career started about 19 months ago, and has only grown and branched out from there. I have a guild, several 60's (the highest you can reach until the exp) and in epics (fucking items that drop off of insane boss kills that require the management of 10-40 people).
Burnout. I've hit burnout. I was raiding 6 days a week. 6 fucking days a week! what the fuck?! Where did my life go? I pulled my warrior out of the 2 day raiding schedule, currently I am in a 4 swing, and 1 day rotation on the lock and rogue, and it is beginning to be too much. To top matters, there is request that I pickup another raid to run, and manage 19 more people as well on Fridays of all things.
I love this game, I love who I can be, which is exactly what I am in real life aside from social contrivances and opinions. To what end? An escape, a salvation? When I reach the end, then what? Just more raiding to get more gear? More time, more experience, more energies that I do not have? All of my close circle of friends play like a cult in harmonious sequence with me at the helm, and I've picked up quite a few people as well. I find the lingo slipping into my daily speech.
Maybe I just need a break for awhile, to what end? Who knows. Although to be honest I doubt that I will stop, because I can't, because I'm needed, I'm depended on, and quite simply I cannot walk away from it, I'm too far into it now.
I can't describe so trivially what I'm feeling right now. Depression, anxiety, exhaustion?
Moderation - I do not have it.
So for the last few months I've been focusing my time energies, technical know-how, and experiences, to an online game. Yes, this is the world of warcraft. My Wow career started about 19 months ago, and has only grown and branched out from there. I have a guild, several 60's (the highest you can reach until the exp) and in epics (fucking items that drop off of insane boss kills that require the management of 10-40 people).
Burnout. I've hit burnout. I was raiding 6 days a week. 6 fucking days a week! what the fuck?! Where did my life go? I pulled my warrior out of the 2 day raiding schedule, currently I am in a 4 swing, and 1 day rotation on the lock and rogue, and it is beginning to be too much. To top matters, there is request that I pickup another raid to run, and manage 19 more people as well on Fridays of all things.
I love this game, I love who I can be, which is exactly what I am in real life aside from social contrivances and opinions. To what end? An escape, a salvation? When I reach the end, then what? Just more raiding to get more gear? More time, more experience, more energies that I do not have? All of my close circle of friends play like a cult in harmonious sequence with me at the helm, and I've picked up quite a few people as well. I find the lingo slipping into my daily speech.
Maybe I just need a break for awhile, to what end? Who knows. Although to be honest I doubt that I will stop, because I can't, because I'm needed, I'm depended on, and quite simply I cannot walk away from it, I'm too far into it now.