Independence Weekend
A time of trifle, yet eventful times. Normally this time of year passes by gleefully of sort, and yet somehow has some sort of meaning. When I was a kid, I remember fire-lit nights of all colors, and the meaning of what little family togetherness I had.
I went to my aunt and father's house, had an interesting dinner, and ironically spent the night. As in all things concerning my father, he yet again managed to find a way to disappoint me, by being himself, and the usual strain of alcoholism, the mere reflection of his life, so to speak, and of course how dysfunctional my family truly is. Amidst of all the chaos, and "dirt" flavored food, I met someone, someone special, odd to think that such a thing would happen on such a fools errand. Its been a long time since I've ever felt that way about situation, and a person quite like that.
The previous week its been nothing but up to salt lake, and back, and of those who know me personally I hate that trip, I avoid it at all costs. This time, yet it was unavoidable. My mother-in-law (sisters husbands mom) passed away last week. I didn't expect terminal cancer, yet her of all people to go in such a fashion, yet death has some kind of mad pattern to it. It seems like in my life, all there seems to be is death and disappointment... *sighs*. She will be missed, she was a great person, and we were somewhat close.
Perhaps in such a way with what happened this last weekend there will be something wonderful to continue, at least if nothing at all, I look at things a little differently, and of course, never forget that Virgo's... and me, somehow, someway, share a unique and bonding affinity.
I went to my aunt and father's house, had an interesting dinner, and ironically spent the night. As in all things concerning my father, he yet again managed to find a way to disappoint me, by being himself, and the usual strain of alcoholism, the mere reflection of his life, so to speak, and of course how dysfunctional my family truly is. Amidst of all the chaos, and "dirt" flavored food, I met someone, someone special, odd to think that such a thing would happen on such a fools errand. Its been a long time since I've ever felt that way about situation, and a person quite like that.
The previous week its been nothing but up to salt lake, and back, and of those who know me personally I hate that trip, I avoid it at all costs. This time, yet it was unavoidable. My mother-in-law (sisters husbands mom) passed away last week. I didn't expect terminal cancer, yet her of all people to go in such a fashion, yet death has some kind of mad pattern to it. It seems like in my life, all there seems to be is death and disappointment... *sighs*. She will be missed, she was a great person, and we were somewhat close.
Perhaps in such a way with what happened this last weekend there will be something wonderful to continue, at least if nothing at all, I look at things a little differently, and of course, never forget that Virgo's... and me, somehow, someway, share a unique and bonding affinity.