Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[dencesmug]

What am I going to do? All of a sudden feelings that I didn't know existed showed up this past weekend. The weird thing is that the last time that I felt this way was two years ago when I was with the same guy. He still won't talk to me and I don't know if he is still mad at me or if he still likes me and for that reason he still can't talk to me because it hurts to much. I tried to talk to someone that I knew hung out with him. He could not help me at all. However, he did tell me that he doesn't normally act like that. What do I do? Do I call him and find out if he still likes me or even if he just wants to be friends. I also want to ask him as a friend to go to my sorority formal with me. Why does this decision have to be so hard to make? And why am I chickening out on calling him? All these questions have been why, I should be able to answer all these questions but I can't and it is driving me nuts. The feelings have been different and I think that seeing him this weekend brought all those feelings I had back into sight. I wish I knew what these feelings mean and if I should I should follow them.

And by the way I am going to see Disturbed on Nov. 29th. If anyone is interested in going please let me know.