Always
Title: Always
Rating: T for angst
Disclaimer: Sadly I don't own Selena or Demi
Summary: It gets so hard sometimes that I just can’t take it anymore.
DEMI’S POV
I love her; I hate her, but I could never live without her. That’s the problem. She makes me lover her by just about everything she does. Every hug, every touch, every ‘I love you’ makes me fall more in love with her. And I hate that.
She makes it so hard to resist sometimes. The way she curls up to me when it’s just us, drives me insane. I would just want to take her right then and there. But then I remember that I’m supposed to be her best friend, and that best friends aren’t supposed to feel this way for each other.
It gets so hard sometimes that I just can’t take it anymore. I would get in my truck and speed through the roads just waiting for someone to run into me, but it never happens. And that’s when I realized how stupid I was. Right now…it’s one of those times.
“I’ll be right back Sel, I just gotta run to my house to get something.” I grabbed my keys from her nightstand, and quickly exit her house.
I come to a stop at a light, the road completely dead, and I just sit there and let my body catch up to my heart. I start to move through the inner section, and that’s when I realize that it’s not completely dead, and that there is someone coming my way….very fast, at that.
It happened too fast for me to really know. The much larger truck slammed into my side, sending my truck flipping through the air. I hear the glass shattering, and then the crash as my truck falls to the ground.
I don’t scream, I don’t talk, and I just stay silent as I lay on the opposite side of my truck on the ground. Some of the glass I landed on cut into my fingers, adding more blood onto what was already running down my face.
I hear the other person’s truck door open, and then their footsteps running up to me.
“Oh my god, just hang on.” I barely see the man’s young face through the small gab between my eyelids. I find it very hard to stay awake now.
The young man walks back over to me and pulls me out of my truck. He lays me back down and I see his red hands as he walks away again. Then his truck is squealing away. I wonder if he feels more like a man now.
I stayed awake long enough to hear the yell of the ambulance.
“Miss can you tell me your name?” one of the people asked me right before I was about to let my eyes close.
“Demi…” I crocked out, my voice surprisingly horse.
“Alright Demi I need you to stay awake. Is there anyone we can call?” Selena. I move one of my red hands down to my pockets. I try to get into it, but my hands hurt too much.
“Phone.” The person notices the bulge in my pocket and gets my hints.
They pull out my slightly cracked phone and turn it on.
“Selena.” I tell them.
It takes less than a second before I hear my Selena’s voice, maybe for the last time.
“Demi? Thank god I was beginning to worry. Where are you?” she’s worrying over me, and here I thought she was beginning to not want me around.
“Miss this is James Stale. I’m calling on behalf of Demi.” It was silent on the other end of the line for about a minute.
“Is- is she ok?” I hear her voice crack and it sends a pain jolting through me.
“She’s undetermined. But we need you to keep her awake until we get to the hospital.” He tells her.
The phone is next to my ear now.
“Demi?” mmm her voice is music to my ears.
“Hey Sel.” I hear a chocked back sob from in her voice.
“Yo-you need to st-stay awake o-ok?” I can tell she’s crying now.
“Don’t cry Sel. Please don’t cry.” A wave of sleep suddenly washes over me, and I can’t help but close my eyes.
“I’m really tired.” I tell her, and I hear another sob.
“No Demi! You can’t sleep!” her sudden yell wakes me up.
“Why?”
“Because you can’t ok. You have to stay awake!” I still don’t understand, but I stay awake for as long as I can, not wanting to upset her anymore.
“Ok, just for you.” I whisper, my voice now hurting.
“Good.”
The phone is pulled away from my ear when we reach a new place.
“Thank you. We are at the hospital now if you want to come.” James tells her.
“I’m almost there.” He hangs up the phone and puts it in his pocket as I am pulled out.
“Can I sleep now?” I didn’t wait for a response before I let my eyes fall shut and my head rolls to the side.
“Demi….Demi!” Is the last thing I hear.
Soreness. That’s all that goes through my mind as I wake up to a bright light.
“Demi?” there’s that voice again.
“S…e…l..” why’s it so hard to talk?
“Shh its ok you don’t have to talk.” Selena gets up from her chair and stands next to my bed.
“Sel…” I make a move to sit up but that only causes too much pain so I stop.
“Demi don’t move you’ll reopen your stitches.” Reopen? Stitches? What the hell happened? Why does Selena look so scared? What the hell is going on?
“What…happened?”
“You got in an accident.” My truck…..the road….light….red….pain…
“Why are you crying?” I groggily reach up to wipe away the tears staining her beautiful face.
“You almost died Dem… you stopped breathing 3 times before I got here.” Her face fell into my hand, as she turned to kiss the palm before taking it in her own hands.
“You’re the reason I breath you know.” I crack a smile, and her tears stop coming.
“Now I do.” Our fingers intertwine and it puts me at peace.
“I love you Sel.” I whisper before sleep finds me again.
“I love you too Dem. I always will.”