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It is too much for me to ask for someone to care. I know this sounds dramatic and exaggerated, but this is what I learned. And I'm not eluding to some other issue with the person I'm thinking of. I mean I literally only wanted them to show they cared, in ANY way that they could, and I got more upset when they didn't, and they knew I got more upset, but that didn't change them either. Nothing. And what's worse is I still ended up going back again and again, giving them more chances to make things right, and getting the same lazy indifference as always. It hurt more every time.And I felt stupid that I couldn't walk away, even though I should have. I didn't want to leave things bad. But why was I making 100% of the effort? And still getting nowhere! There is nothing on this earth I could do, short of possibly dropping dead, that could make this person lift a finger to show me that they care.
So I ask again- what IS it about me that is so inherently unlikable? Someone tell me! I can't figure it out anymore! Why can't I have good friends? Why do I always like people more than they like me? And when they find out that I like them, it seems to make them like me less somehow! What is it? What did I do? What is wrong with me that I am not seeing??
So I ask again- what IS it about me that is so inherently unlikable? Someone tell me! I can't figure it out anymore! Why can't I have good friends? Why do I always like people more than they like me? And when they find out that I like them, it seems to make them like me less somehow! What is it? What did I do? What is wrong with me that I am not seeing??