Consideration
Part of the reason why i blocked everyone and not talked to them was so that i dont have to bother anyone with my voice or prescence. I felt that this had to be done because there was a need for it. This week of silence has given me lots to think about, including past and recent events. I've been analyzing the reasons why i feel the way i feel. Apparently, I think i've been hurt more indirectly than directly. Though, those people in question haven't noticed or don't care, i could care less. But the fact that the actions were done obliviously kinda pisses me off. But i guess its deserved lol. I'm not a very good person either, but atleast i know when i target someone or insult them directly or when theyre in the room. If i did insult ppl behind they're backs, i apologize a little but they still deserve it. I dont think i can trust anyone right now ATM and talking to Janet and Todd without nonspecific reasons helps. But i saw pictures and now im back to square one. So for those who are receive this silence i apologize, but among those are ones that deserve this. But like i said, it helps them more than it helps me. This just helps me think of ways to insult myself more. lol Yes im an asshole, an idiot, emo, dramatic, crybaby, worrywart, paranoid, dumbass, and all that jazz. But at least i know i am...and want to change it...lets hope my decisions will turn out ok beacause i feel like i might start burning bridges soon rather than burying the hatchets.