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ENOUGH.
I'm not sure why there is the need to raise unnecessary argument against what was a clear mistake of my own. I allowed myself, to fall into despair and anger and into the condition I eventually displayed- yet why the arguments and accusations against the integrity of my person? Admittedly, I am upset by my own behavior, yet I am re-reading the record of the situation and cannot help myself from being somewhat amused.
If someone has a problem against the way I -normally- perform my tasks, I would not mind hearing critique. As it stands, it appears many misunderstand my role as the Harbinger. Perhaps those that are unsettled will like to be reminded, that most of the Avatars are the ones who wish to maintain a sense of order and ease for the inhabitants of the city, and have been selected for their devotion to the task at hand.
I come from a world where people were ruled by the hand of power and a certain sense of fear. I am not entirely in agreement with this method, yet in a place such as this, a place which is settled between worlds of worlds and a place which is not the world we hail from, and a world from which we have no escape, as well as a place where people come from lands and worlds far beyond the vastness of our thoughts.. if there are punishments and disciplinary methods that need to be taken, what is wrong in that? There is a purpose and reason for all coming here, and from here is where we progress. To find a way to strengthen ourselves and find a way to reach the places we seek to be.
But what I will not. EVER agree to.. is the unjust accusation of the innocent. Be it against those who are free of guilt and crime.. or myself. We are here, we cannot expect the city to conform to the rules of our worlds. That is why there are sectors.. for us to be comfortable in environments familiar to us. I cannot say how long we will be here.. I cannot exactly say -why- we are here.. but I do know this. It is our actions that make this a Paradise or Hell. That is why there is a unified working system.. surely. Surely there is some good to the possible evils we seem to perceive here..
I do not take this task lightly. I do it with full understanding of my place and trust that no one will question that again.
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I grow weary. I apologise for my behavior and assuredly it will not happen again. Those words are not fabricated, but my thoughts as they stand. There is just something that has been bothering me..
Hasn't it been.. far too easy to blame Raito? I'm not agreeing with what he's possibly allowing to happen, but I have been observing him. There's something off.. very seriously off about his position and behavior. He might be trying to hide something, but.. I have the same feeling back from.. back from then. Before the occurrences of Deepground..
...
There's a greater hand in this. I'm not sure why.. but I know there is..
Reeve, I'm going to accompany you to the trial. The person to be judged shouldn't be you.. but that Avatar of Justice himself. And not for a possible camouflage of crime.. but of what he's being made to do.
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I am grateful for small measures.. hm. Thanks to the biogenetic construction of my body, this hangover was hardly difficult to beat, especially in an uninjured state.
I am fine. Please do not worry for me.. I just need to have some time to think.
I'm not sure why there is the need to raise unnecessary argument against what was a clear mistake of my own. I allowed myself, to fall into despair and anger and into the condition I eventually displayed- yet why the arguments and accusations against the integrity of my person? Admittedly, I am upset by my own behavior, yet I am re-reading the record of the situation and cannot help myself from being somewhat amused.
If someone has a problem against the way I -normally- perform my tasks, I would not mind hearing critique. As it stands, it appears many misunderstand my role as the Harbinger. Perhaps those that are unsettled will like to be reminded, that most of the Avatars are the ones who wish to maintain a sense of order and ease for the inhabitants of the city, and have been selected for their devotion to the task at hand.
I come from a world where people were ruled by the hand of power and a certain sense of fear. I am not entirely in agreement with this method, yet in a place such as this, a place which is settled between worlds of worlds and a place which is not the world we hail from, and a world from which we have no escape, as well as a place where people come from lands and worlds far beyond the vastness of our thoughts.. if there are punishments and disciplinary methods that need to be taken, what is wrong in that? There is a purpose and reason for all coming here, and from here is where we progress. To find a way to strengthen ourselves and find a way to reach the places we seek to be.
But what I will not. EVER agree to.. is the unjust accusation of the innocent. Be it against those who are free of guilt and crime.. or myself. We are here, we cannot expect the city to conform to the rules of our worlds. That is why there are sectors.. for us to be comfortable in environments familiar to us. I cannot say how long we will be here.. I cannot exactly say -why- we are here.. but I do know this. It is our actions that make this a Paradise or Hell. That is why there is a unified working system.. surely. Surely there is some good to the possible evils we seem to perceive here..
I do not take this task lightly. I do it with full understanding of my place and trust that no one will question that again.
...
[ Private//Filtered from AK's Minions//Avatars//Viewable to Sephiroth ]
I grow weary. I apologise for my behavior and assuredly it will not happen again. Those words are not fabricated, but my thoughts as they stand. There is just something that has been bothering me..
Hasn't it been.. far too easy to blame Raito? I'm not agreeing with what he's possibly allowing to happen, but I have been observing him. There's something off.. very seriously off about his position and behavior. He might be trying to hide something, but.. I have the same feeling back from.. back from then. Before the occurrences of Deepground..
...
There's a greater hand in this. I'm not sure why.. but I know there is..
Reeve, I'm going to accompany you to the trial. The person to be judged shouldn't be you.. but that Avatar of Justice himself. And not for a possible camouflage of crime.. but of what he's being made to do.
---
I am grateful for small measures.. hm. Thanks to the biogenetic construction of my body, this hangover was hardly difficult to beat, especially in an uninjured state.
I am fine. Please do not worry for me.. I just need to have some time to think.