I REQUIRE REASSURANCE
So, my first class in more than ten years starts tomorrow. Here are the things I am excited about:
1. I love being in class. I love taking notes. And college is even better than high school, because you can keep your coffee with you for the whole time.
2. I am going to learn about colour theory. It's easy!
3. My sister bought me school supplies for Christmas. I have notebooks and folders and lots of pens and two different kinds of sticky notes (she got me regular ones and star shaped ones. Obviously, the regular ones are for when people want to borrow them. The star shaped ones are just for me) and highlighters and a mini stapler and mechanical pencils and those rubber things that you put on the end and a sharpener and everything I need.
4. It's at night. I don't have to wake up early to go to class!
Here are the things I am freaking out about:
1. Where do I sit? I always sit at the back, but then what if there aren't a lot of people in the class and the instructor yells at me to move down to the front and then everyone's staring at me? But then what if I sit too close to the front and the instructor is staring at me the whole time?
2. It's one class. Do I bring a backpack? My backpack has multi-coloured stars all over it, everyone is going to think I'm a huge dork. What if I don't bring a backpack and then I get a textbook and I can't fit it into my handbag?
3. Wait. How do I know if I need a textbook? It didn't say anything about that in the course info. HOW DO I KNOW IF I NEED TO BUY A TEXTBOOK?
4. Where do I go? I remember that they used to change the room of classes all the time when I was in school, what if they do that and I go into the wrong one and then I'm in the middle of "Okay, class, everyone get out your slide rules."?
5. I am old. Everyone else will be like, 19! They will be talking about 19-year-old things!
6. What if people try to talk to me and I get all nervous and awkward and then I'm The Awkward Girl for the whole course?
7. What if there's group work at some point and everyone moves into groups of 4 and no one wants to be in my group and then I'm all by myself?
8. What if no one else has school supplies and they all want to borrow my good pens?
9. What if I'm still sick and I'm sniffling and coughing and sneezing for the whole thing, and everyone thinks I'm all H1N1 and no one wants to be my friend?
I hate school. Why am I doing this? This is so dumb.
1. I love being in class. I love taking notes. And college is even better than high school, because you can keep your coffee with you for the whole time.
2. I am going to learn about colour theory. It's easy!
3. My sister bought me school supplies for Christmas. I have notebooks and folders and lots of pens and two different kinds of sticky notes (she got me regular ones and star shaped ones. Obviously, the regular ones are for when people want to borrow them. The star shaped ones are just for me) and highlighters and a mini stapler and mechanical pencils and those rubber things that you put on the end and a sharpener and everything I need.
4. It's at night. I don't have to wake up early to go to class!
Here are the things I am freaking out about:
1. Where do I sit? I always sit at the back, but then what if there aren't a lot of people in the class and the instructor yells at me to move down to the front and then everyone's staring at me? But then what if I sit too close to the front and the instructor is staring at me the whole time?
2. It's one class. Do I bring a backpack? My backpack has multi-coloured stars all over it, everyone is going to think I'm a huge dork. What if I don't bring a backpack and then I get a textbook and I can't fit it into my handbag?
3. Wait. How do I know if I need a textbook? It didn't say anything about that in the course info. HOW DO I KNOW IF I NEED TO BUY A TEXTBOOK?
4. Where do I go? I remember that they used to change the room of classes all the time when I was in school, what if they do that and I go into the wrong one and then I'm in the middle of "Okay, class, everyone get out your slide rules."?
5. I am old. Everyone else will be like, 19! They will be talking about 19-year-old things!
6. What if people try to talk to me and I get all nervous and awkward and then I'm The Awkward Girl for the whole course?
7. What if there's group work at some point and everyone moves into groups of 4 and no one wants to be in my group and then I'm all by myself?
8. What if no one else has school supplies and they all want to borrow my good pens?
9. What if I'm still sick and I'm sniffling and coughing and sneezing for the whole thing, and everyone thinks I'm all H1N1 and no one wants to be my friend?
I hate school. Why am I doing this? This is so dumb.