Happy Birthday, Sev!

[demonqueen986]

Well, it's Severus' birthday today. As I seem to do on the birthday of pretty much everyone I feel like I know, it's time for introspection. So, here's the million dollar question, Regis: do I form unnatural attachments to fictional characters in order to compensate for my lack of connections to the people around me? And if I do, can that really be considered as a wholly bad thing? Especially when you consider the kind of characters I tend to become attached to? Or should I stop indulging my own short-comings by allowing myself to feel like I know these people better than I possibly can, and instead, take a chance on someone I meet out in the wide world, knowing that with my personal tastes, the chances are better than not that I'll end up forming affection for some serial killer, or general not-nice-person. It's a question I sure can't answer, but one that's been bothering me for a while now. And this morning it truly hit me: I have horrible taste in people. With the exception of Sarah, I cannot think of a single person I have ever been attached to who wasn't poisonous to me, in some form or another. I'm attracted to deadly men, to venomous women, and utterly repulsed by those who could be good for me. Given this fact, it seems logical that I keep my relationships in the fictional world. But is that really any healthier? Or am I killing myself softly, avoiding the world and just refusing to try; convincing myself that if I do, I'll end up regretting it.

I'm not really looking for any answers, I know there aren't really any to be given. It's just been bothering me. Anyway, happy 46th birthday, Severus. May your year be better than mine. Although with your history, I somehow doubt it. At any rate, try not to get killed.