Scaramouche, scaramouche will you do the fandango?
Today. .
Today sucked. Most of it did, at least.
Then I got home and this calm washed over me. I know that this doesn't really mean anything and that it will all blow over.
It doesn't really matter. I don't really care about it anymore, I'm done caring about it, about anyone.
So. . why did my day suck?
Well, Cait pretty much outlined it in her journal, and I've written enough private and specific friends cut entries today that I don't feel like going over it again. Lets just say that I feel like I'm being lied to by people I trust.
And then I got an F in my Algebra class, on my progress report.
I actually cried.
Cried, at school. In the middle of the lunch room. I have never cried at school, and I try to make it a point never to cry in front of people.
I swear, the only thing that kept me going all day was the little piece of glass tubing that I stole from first period. We were bending glass (with ooh fire) and I stole an extra piece. . its all pretty and smooth, and I kept fingering it in my pocket all day (not as bad as it sounds). That and the fact that I have a better piece of glass tubing waiting for me in one of the drawers when I get back on Monday. This piece is longer and is bent, but I couldn't take it today because it was still hot when the bell rang and I couldn't slip it in my pocket without burning myself. .
So, yeah, today sucked.
And I'm grounded, so I can't go and forget everything at Alison's this weekend. .
But, I feel strangely calm. Its a very nice feeling. .
Today sucked. Most of it did, at least.
Then I got home and this calm washed over me. I know that this doesn't really mean anything and that it will all blow over.
It doesn't really matter. I don't really care about it anymore, I'm done caring about it, about anyone.
So. . why did my day suck?
Well, Cait pretty much outlined it in her journal, and I've written enough private and specific friends cut entries today that I don't feel like going over it again. Lets just say that I feel like I'm being lied to by people I trust.
And then I got an F in my Algebra class, on my progress report.
I actually cried.
Cried, at school. In the middle of the lunch room. I have never cried at school, and I try to make it a point never to cry in front of people.
I swear, the only thing that kept me going all day was the little piece of glass tubing that I stole from first period. We were bending glass (with ooh fire) and I stole an extra piece. . its all pretty and smooth, and I kept fingering it in my pocket all day (not as bad as it sounds). That and the fact that I have a better piece of glass tubing waiting for me in one of the drawers when I get back on Monday. This piece is longer and is bent, but I couldn't take it today because it was still hot when the bell rang and I couldn't slip it in my pocket without burning myself. .
So, yeah, today sucked.
And I'm grounded, so I can't go and forget everything at Alison's this weekend. .
But, I feel strangely calm. Its a very nice feeling. .