serious... . . .

[demonnite]

ive always written about the most retarded shit like crack and heroin but to for once be completely serious and not feel jjudged by anyone some days i wish i could recieve a letter or meet someone who doesnt suck after two weeks someone who is true to their word. i wish that i could just play my music and be happy or shoot kids on their way to school just do something that would make life worth living again people say that i have changed and they are right im the only person i know who has been completely homeless to the point of sitting infront of a gas station begging for change so that i could get something to eat ive seen the farthest regions of the darker side of life and loved every minute but something inside my head tells me i need to do something different for once maybe just... . . . well i dont know cause well if i knew i wouldnt be in this predicament. i wake up every day saying fuck why the hell am i still alive i have nothing but my friends to live for but i then also wonder how many friends i truly do have. sometimes i feel like a ghost or a myth the person people hear about but dont really know i have larger than life adventures and live everyday wondering where im gonna sleep retards might call me punk rock but im really just pathetic i seen em all rise and fall and decay though i have yet to waver my undying convictions i wont fuck over someone i truely care about i have seen less of so many people when i thought they were capable of so much else no one ever lives up to their potential they just live and they barely live at that.

F.I.A.