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So i realized i still had one of these......heh.....so from last post, Gypsy went really well. All but 3 days sold out. On our biggest night we got a new piano player and he totally botched our 2 minutes on stage by not playing any form of intro for our little song. oh well its fun to laugh about now. Pretty bored for the most part these days. I've been going to some shows at school. because i have connection i've been getting in half price or free. Love it! been trying to hang out with people but it never seems to work out. I've been on a real up for a few weeks and i'm kind of on a slope down. Been doing thinking and i hate going bacl to my old ways. I wish i could just take a chance and not fret so much about the future. I just need to learn to let things play themselves out instead of stopping it before it even starts. In the end kyle was right, i'm afrain of commitment. don't know how to fix it. oh well. we'll see what happens. i've also been feeling kind of like 2nd best in some ways. Sometimes i feel like people are only friend with me because i'm friends with other people. I'm always told one thing but nothing ever follows through. some of my friendships seem very half hearted and i cant decided whether to try and let go or embrace that i have these persons in my life to begin with. I'm happy with my life dont get me wrong, jsut sorting out where things belong i guess
on another note i really suck at this college thing. I've come to realize that if you study you do well....i've never developed a habit of studying...so its bitting me in the butt now. I totally bombed a math test today. i was so ashamed of myself i didnt go back to class afterwards...that'll help. i really dont want to even see my grade cuz i know the prof. is just going to shake her head and say what the hell happened here? finals are next week. year one of college almost complete. weird.
i ran into Rory frommiddle school sunday night. that was a surprise. it hought he hated me. turns out to be a very smart and articulate guy. whodda thunk.
okay i'm done here
on another note i really suck at this college thing. I've come to realize that if you study you do well....i've never developed a habit of studying...so its bitting me in the butt now. I totally bombed a math test today. i was so ashamed of myself i didnt go back to class afterwards...that'll help. i really dont want to even see my grade cuz i know the prof. is just going to shake her head and say what the hell happened here? finals are next week. year one of college almost complete. weird.
i ran into Rory frommiddle school sunday night. that was a surprise. it hought he hated me. turns out to be a very smart and articulate guy. whodda thunk.
okay i'm done here