Some people just ain't cut out for life; I may be one of them

[demonista]

I feel like shit today. It was all I could do to get out of fucking bed and smile maybe twice all day. I just feel so sad, crappy, out of whack, hopeless. I've been having thoughts of self-harming again. But I refuse to act on it.

In this brave new world, Orwellian double-speak reigns. Freedom in slavery, bondage is liberation, loving games of hate

Comments

[azaz_al]

*hugs you*

[demonista]

thanks. *hugs back, and a vanilla flavoured ice lolly* (i was cracking a joke with the vanilla bit, in case you didn`t know)

[pocketsizedhero]

i'm sorry :( i didn't know if i should tell you... did i make the wrong choice?

[demonista]

No, I'm glad to know, and I may have found out anyway. Not to mention they were saying much of the same thing on feminist and feminist_sex. I think it's rather amusing how they're complaining about being "ratted out." You're a tattle take, tsk tsk. jk. They've complained about someone telling the subject of their post that they were posting about me on a public form on the internet. My heart *bleeds* for them.

[pocketsizedhero]

ah, thats good... i didn't want to bring something to you which would just hurt or upset you... but at the same time i thought you should know.

lol thats hilarious... i've seen that a lot, where they make a post about someone and then complain about said person finding out. infants.

[demonista]

Especially when it`s not a friends or members only post!

If ya wanna moan and complain without certain people (ie me) finding out do it through e-mail, at least! Christ.

[switchstatement]

stupid free is the dumbest community ever.

[demonista]

stupid_free is full of stupidity. ha!

[sophiaserpentia]

I still haven't heard back from the mods at feminist. I'll let you know as soon as i hear.

And: hugs.

[demonista]

thanks. but feminist may be sick of me too. I`ve been banned from feminist_rage too, not just feminist_sex--the latter, yeah, i can understand--they`re `sex-positive,` but a comm called feminist_rage, that lists andrea dworkin in it`s interests--huhÉ

[sophiaserpentia]

Well, my own future participation in that community may hinge on their response, though i didn't tell them that. I mean, i know the community can't be "safe space" in the sense of protecting us from ever being hurt or offended, but at the same time, the stupid_free post was an incredibly un-feminist (as i understand feminism) thing to do, and i don't think i'm inclined to participate in feminist if they tacitly accept or promote such a thing.

[demonista]

wow. *omigod i love you* *flails*

i feel happier now. well, i don`t feel crappy anymore, anyways.

[ginless_tonic]

dear god. i got through a tiny bit of those comments and started sputtering in a way that made my friends concerned for my mental health.

i think we could have a fabulous discussion about the intersections of the trans community and the radical feminist community...

and it hurts me that so many people jumped down your throat in such an ugly way when you expressed an opinion that was, in my humble opinion, not transphobic. and i'm dating a very pretty transboi (disclaimer: not that this makes me an expert or able to speak for the entire trans or transpartner community/ies

[demonista]

did you read from all three comms, or just feminst or stupid free?

i know! some of my posts were simple questions, e.g. about adam's apples. i was wondering about who has 'em, what they were, etc. and got smacked cross eyed for it.

[demonista]

btw, i just looked it up. and this is what it says: "a projection of the thyroid cartilage at the front of the neck that is more prominent in men than in women." and "The slight projection at the front of the throat formed by the largest cartilage of the larynx, usually more prominent in men than in women." well, jesus herbert christ, that's all i thought it was, so why are tracheal shavings needed, and why was i being mocked for asking if what is actually my adam's apple an adam's apple. they were all "oh, she says she has an adam's apple" all snarky. well, fuck, everyone does.

[ginless_tonic]

*warning: bitter sarcasm ahead*
well, obviously, they're just so much smarter than you, with their much more advanced understanding of gender. it's difficult to talk down to your level; snarkiness is the only way to get through.
*end*

i told my cousin, who had to endure a serious rant about this whole situation, that it reminds me of andrea dworkin's quote "if questions make the holy penis unhappy, what will the answers do?"