Another opportunity gone
The heat made it impossible to have any kind of sexual interaction. Hard to make a baby when you dont want body contact with anyone. Too hot and exhausting to just live.
We still managed to do our dutiful attempt but today i know ot didn't help. My period has been approaching since a few days back. I knew it the instant i started craving chocolate chip cookies.
So... Now another month before we can try again. And all around me are my pregnant friends, colleagues or acquaintances. Or those that just gave birth.
I cant even turn the tv on without getting reminded of how inadequate i am. I wish I had gotten pregnant early... I regret so much... I dont know how to handle the possibility of never being able to have my own child.
The pain is all too real...