Old Poems
The Death In Love
A white heaven glows with light
The people part, you're in my sight
The music plays, it is our song
We take eachother, dance all night long
I gaze into your beautiful eyes
I have found my love, my life, my prize
Then I do think that I realize
It is me that you truly despise
I thought I found a love to love
You were so kind, as pure as a dove
The world is what i would only give
Without your love I could not live
The heaven of lights went dark with grief
Although my life was oh so brief
I learned to love and to lose
Good-bye cruel world, Good-bye my muse
There's Got To Be More
There's got be more in this life
Than just living from day to day
More feelings to feel than just emotions
More words to be spoken than what we say
There's got to be more to be
Than just being you and me
More to come, more sights to see
More than ending it tragically
There's got to be more to death
Than fading away into the night
More than tears that will be wept
More to be seen than with mortal sight
There's got to be more to do
Than just loving you
More to have, more to pursue
More than killing life with you
~fEeL tHe SaMe~ 12/1/2003
And yet again you're out of reach
Back to the sky from whence you came
And life goes on, neverending
And things will go back to the same
Since you left I don't know how to act
Since you left I don't know how to feel
Since you left I feel all alone
And I don't know how my heart will heal
But maybe you'll fall from the sky
Back from the heavens from whence you came
And things will be completely different
But to me they'll feel the same
I Was Wrong
As I drift into my sleep
I'm staring into an endless place
And then I realize that I'm falling
Falling into an empty space
I scream so loud and so long
But realize no one hear's me
Because this is just a dream
And that dreams can't hurt me
Then I hit the hard rock ground
And I feel an endless pain
Then onto my own disappointment
Clouds open up and start to rain
I start to wish that I'd wake up
And just leave this horrid place
Then I lift up my own hand
And feel tears stream down my face
I was wrong about dreaming
About not being in pain
Then I wake up in a ditch
Just as it stops to rain
Maybe Just Maybe
Maybe I need to fall
Maybe I need to cry
Maybe I need to find myself
Maybe I need to die
Maybe I need to hide in darkness
Maybe I need to become someone new
Maybe I need to stop needing
Maybe I need to be more like you
Maybe I need to stop thinking like this
Maybe I need to learn to deal
Maybe I need to stop dreaming
Maybe I need to learn what's real
Maybe I need to be all alone
Maybe I need to have just one friend
Maybe I need to find the beginning
Maybe I need to jump off the end
Maybe I need to find one who cares
Maybe I need to lie to my soul
Maybe I need to lie down in despair
Maybe I need to dig my own hole
Maybe I need to find my answer
Maybe I need to learn how to try
Maybe I need to ask better questions
Maybe I need to cry, lie, and to die
Tell Me
Tell me why you're crying
So I can wipe away your tears
Tell me why you're afraid
So I can rid you of your fears
Tell me how to make things better
So I can make your grey skies blue
Tell me how to make you smile
So I can stare that frown right through
Tell me when to hold you
So I can warm you from the cold
Tell me when to call you
So I can cheer you up when we grow old
Tell me where to meet you
So we can laugh about times of past
Tell me when to love you
So we can make these memories last
Tell me what I can do
So you don't think that you're alone
Tell me what you need from me
So I can make your mysteries known
Tell me when I need to leave
So you can have your way
Tell me when to stop
So I can continue to stay
Tell me when you need my love
So I can feel like I belong
Tell me when to open my heart
So I can listen to your song
Tell me when you need me near
So I can be there when things go bad
Tell me when to cheer you up
So I can help rid you of sad
Tell me how to be your knight
So I can save you from your heart
Tell me where I can begin
So I can give us a new start
One Last Something
One last something
Anything
Just as long as you're here
One last tango
Swirling
As long as you're near
One last ballad
Passion
As long as you cry
One last kiss
Heartache
Just as long as you say good-bye
One last smile
Happiness
I don't care if it's fake
One last love song
Memories
I don't care how long it takes
One last night
Moonglow
I don't care if we're not real
One last tight embrace
Forever
I don't care how it feels
One last day
Everafter
Fading into the night
One last whisper
Nothingness
Fading from the light
One last look
Gazing
Fading into fright
One last good-bye
Forever
Fading out of sight
Already Dead
I'm dead already
No tomorrow
Why cry your eyes out
It's not sweet sorrow
I'll see you again
Rotting in the night
Fire surrounding us
Yet there is no light
And forever really does come true
And dreams died long ago for me and you
And pain is just a daily vow
So no more tomorrow, no forever, only now
Forever Me
Why can't it be you and me
I wish that you could only see
Away from light we could hide
And into the darkness we could ride
I'd be your man in armor's love
Wrangling your fears from up above
And you'd be my queen
And see the unseen
Like the dark and the hate
And the cold iron gate
That blocks me from you
No matter what I may do
I just want you here
Always close always near
Cuz I'd hold you dear
And you'll never have nothing to fear
I'd give you my love
And you'd be alright
I'd keep your warm
From the cold winters night
But it's not meant to be
And you'll never see
That I was standing here forever
And forever alone will it be me
Twas The Day Before Christmas
Twas a few days before Christmas and Mikey forgot
To dig out the card he originally had bought
His paper was tucked all snug in the PC bed
While visions of ink danced in their head
Me half asleep on my couch mid-day
Suddenly awakening not knowing what to say
So I jumped to my keyboard and typed till my fingers were blue
And uploaded images from online of you
I crept off to Staples to buy me more ink
And hoped to high heaven this card didn't stink
Me in my plaid pants and tattered red top
Got to the cartridge with a bound, leap, and a hop
As I leapt back into my black Chevrolet
I yelled to the clerk "Have a nice day!"
All of this fuss was just for a card
But the point of the story is I worked really hard
So like Old Saint Nick would say on Christmas night
"Merry Christmas OD Friends
Hope this message is just right!"
You
I would do anything for YOU
Just to hold you close to ME
I'd paint the world over from black to BLUE
I'd swim the oceans far and WIDE
Brave any battle to save YOU
I'd give my life if you'd ask me TO
I'd cry forever if you weren't MINE
And stab my soul and watch it DIE
I'd wait here forever just to HEAR
Just to hear you say you love ME
But I hope forever never COMES
Because I don't think I could last FOREVER
I count each tear from every DAY
And save it for TOMORROW
I'd count the stars in all their GLORY
Cuz they don't feel my SORROW
I'd lie down and die just to see you CRY
To know that you care TOO
I'd give up forever just for TOMORROW
Only one tomorrow with YOU
Tears
i feel the tears
they burn my eyes
and everywhere i gaze
it's nothing but
the pain i feel
from being in this tragic daze
there's no tomorrow
no more future
cuz my life means no more
no more smiles
no happy ending
nothing to live for
just my wounds
they never heal
all they do is bleed
they sting like fire
they feel ice cold
why won't HE give me what i need
and where are you
when i'm in need
you're never by my side
cuz you run in fear
everytime i scream
you can only bare to hide
i feel the tears
stream down my face
but i can't feel the pain
i see the tears
they're crystal clear
and when i cry for you it starts to rain
Dying Record
Beating
Dripping
Surrounded by my life
Haunting
Calling
The urge to grab that knife
Drowning
Falling
My blood is pouring forth
Pounding
Thinking
How much is life worth
Fleeting
Fading
Shadows all around
Passing
Crossing
No one is to be found
Crying
Suffering
I feel in so much pain
Breathing
Panting
I hear the echo of the rain
Time is dying
And life is gone
Never got to see the day light
Never found out what's wrong
But it's too late
The record's on the last song
Scratching into nothing
Fading, passing, dying at the dawn
Valentine's Day Poem
I hope that you enjoy this day full of love, of life, of things to come
And that you may just think of me
Even if it is just for brief moment
Cuz I'll be thinking of you
And all that you hold dear
I'll pluck the petals off the roses
I'll wait till you are near
And even if I have to wait
Till the stars die and the rain fade
I'll wait for you to feel the same forever
I'll wait here for you forever and a day
Untitled
It doesnt seem real
The way that I feel
I could dance on air
Live life with no care
And always be glad
That Im never sad
Maybe one day
I will feel this way
But until that day
Ill search and Ill pray
That one day Ill smile
And this fight will be worth while
Wow....that's alot of poems.