Vodka, sighing out.

[demonicplaymate]

I said I was going to stop righting in this thing and I am, I was going to delete it but I don't want to so I'm just going to leave it. I'll be on my way to drinking and drugging myself to death, you have a problem with that you can go fuck yourself. Yeah I'm a bitch I know but oh well. I don't need anybody. I just want to get drunk and fucking pass out somewhere, so fuck off.

Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over. Why can't we drink forever. I just want to start things over.

There's a shadow just behind me,
shrouding every breath I take,
making every promise empty,
pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path called "must we"
just before the son has come.
Jesus, won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.

I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
just enough to bring you down.

Trust me.

Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but what's past and done.

Trust me.

I want what I want.