Surreal Reality
In a little more than an hour, I'll be at my last choir concert.
It seems really...surreal. The fact that I have only 10 or so more days left of my high school education and that tonight will be the last time I sing with my choir as an actual choir member is just....I don't even know.
There will be crying. I know there will be, yesterday some seniors in choir were barely able to hold it together during practice. I wonder how far we'll get in our songs before we break down....
I hope I cry. I never cried at the previous last concerts the past three years, but this year...I might. Since it is MY last one, you know? But my AS makes me so detached from my emotions, I wonder if any internal sadness I know I'll feel will make it out in external tears....
Then again, I almost don't want to cry because if everyone else is crying, there needs to be at least someone still singing, XD.
But I dunno....I suppose I'll find out when I'm actually there and in the moment and seeing my friends all breaking down. Our director's going to be crying too, so with all the crying I may be compelled to cry with them. Who knows...
I also never thought I'd say this, but I'll kinda miss the dress we wear at concerts. I'm going to be really sad to see it go. It never fit my standards for a dress and I always only wore it because it was an obligation and not a choice, but it's still the only dress I've ever felt comfortable in.
In other news, Moonlight still hasn't evolved. Although he knows Bite now, so aaaany day now he should evolve. Hopefully.
I also have three projects going in Jewelry that all have to be done by the time I leave! I'm STILL working on my ring (which has been casted, I'm just filing the pieces so that they can be soudered together), then I have a bracelet I need to have done that's kinda almost done, and then I have my final project which is going to be a complicated piece of mother (because I can't make anything simple if I tried).
There's a lot of different schedules I have to keep in my head because seniors leave early and therefore I'm on a different timeframe lesson-wise than everyone else. Yesterday my geometry teacher kinda went over the senior schedule with me for her class.
My exam for Government is a take-home exam. Which kinda makes me afraid, because she claims there'll be a "temptation to copy and paste answers" which makes me even more afraid.
And hopefully tomorrow I'll collect a list of people who want my senior pic and then write a note to them on the backs of the pictures and hand them out on Monday...
Gotta go get ready. Wish I had a video camera to record the concert with ;-;.
It seems really...surreal. The fact that I have only 10 or so more days left of my high school education and that tonight will be the last time I sing with my choir as an actual choir member is just....I don't even know.
There will be crying. I know there will be, yesterday some seniors in choir were barely able to hold it together during practice. I wonder how far we'll get in our songs before we break down....
I hope I cry. I never cried at the previous last concerts the past three years, but this year...I might. Since it is MY last one, you know? But my AS makes me so detached from my emotions, I wonder if any internal sadness I know I'll feel will make it out in external tears....
Then again, I almost don't want to cry because if everyone else is crying, there needs to be at least someone still singing, XD.
But I dunno....I suppose I'll find out when I'm actually there and in the moment and seeing my friends all breaking down. Our director's going to be crying too, so with all the crying I may be compelled to cry with them. Who knows...
I also never thought I'd say this, but I'll kinda miss the dress we wear at concerts. I'm going to be really sad to see it go. It never fit my standards for a dress and I always only wore it because it was an obligation and not a choice, but it's still the only dress I've ever felt comfortable in.
In other news, Moonlight still hasn't evolved. Although he knows Bite now, so aaaany day now he should evolve. Hopefully.
I also have three projects going in Jewelry that all have to be done by the time I leave! I'm STILL working on my ring (which has been casted, I'm just filing the pieces so that they can be soudered together), then I have a bracelet I need to have done that's kinda almost done, and then I have my final project which is going to be a complicated piece of mother (because I can't make anything simple if I tried).
There's a lot of different schedules I have to keep in my head because seniors leave early and therefore I'm on a different timeframe lesson-wise than everyone else. Yesterday my geometry teacher kinda went over the senior schedule with me for her class.
My exam for Government is a take-home exam. Which kinda makes me afraid, because she claims there'll be a "temptation to copy and paste answers" which makes me even more afraid.
And hopefully tomorrow I'll collect a list of people who want my senior pic and then write a note to them on the backs of the pictures and hand them out on Monday...
Gotta go get ready. Wish I had a video camera to record the concert with ;-;.