Roller-coaster heart once again.....
Okay guys I broke up with Raechon today, and we agreed to stay friends. I just have too much with my heart going on right now! I banned my heart from liking Jules and I'm almost completley over her, then there's the whole 'Marc-Anthony' factor. If I am gonna dump him I'm gonna do it in the middle of the week that I'm there so we have time to get used to being friends.
Don't even get me started with Sofia. It's sooooooo complicated now. And I know Jenna's reading this so I can't say what I want to in english. Je sais po si je l'aime toujours ous non. Don't even bother translating it on www.freetranslation.com because it's slang and it won't work.
And as for Ben....we got married on this site www.zenhex.com and he got me pregnant there. He told me every day that he loves me and now....I realized yesterday that I love him too. I've never been in love this deep before. So now we're going out and I'm sooooo confused now, with the deals with Sofia, Marc-Anthony and now Ben. Ben's a keeper, but if Sofia's going out with James then I'm allowed to keep him. If not, then I'll have to choose.......I hate that! But Marc-Anthony is a hard decision.
I'm leaving tomorrow at noon so we'll see.....I'll miss u Ben!!! I love you sooooo much!!!!
And as for Jules.....talk to Sofia please. And tell Becky yurself sometime SOON!!!
Sofia.....talk to you when I get back....hopefully you'll actually pick up the phone :P
Marc-Antoinne......Je te vois au Canada bientot!!!
Okay and yeah I'm gonna see my Godfather who I haven't seen him in 6 years!!! I know I'm gonna cry when I see him....because I'm emotional like that. Thats what happens when he abandons me......I yell at him, he finally comes and I'll cry when I see him. Its only for a day.....to make up for 6 FUCKING YEARS!!!! WTF!? I'm pissed at this and I might act bitchy towards him....he'd better ask me a million questions about me or else he might as well just not show up......if he doesn't I swear to mother-fucking god he will be cut out of my life forever!!! I WILL NEVER SPEAK TO HIM AGAIN!!! If he's not interested in how much I've changed since I was fucking 9 years old than I want nothing to do with him. I'll have to warn my Grandpa that I'm gonna cry and hopefully his family won't mind....oh well, I don't like them anyways. Screw them.
As for my wieght issue I was anorexic for like 5 days then Ben helped me. That's why I stopped so soon. I'm positive he loves me since not only did he say it, but his reaction when I told him I loved him back....just everything about him. In fact.....I have a nice surprise in store for him. I might give it to him tomorrow....or I might wait. But to make him happy I might do it tomorrow.....or then again I might have to know him a little better.
Let's just see, shall we? ;-)
-Demonic_Punk
Don't even get me started with Sofia. It's sooooooo complicated now. And I know Jenna's reading this so I can't say what I want to in english. Je sais po si je l'aime toujours ous non. Don't even bother translating it on www.freetranslation.com because it's slang and it won't work.
And as for Ben....we got married on this site www.zenhex.com and he got me pregnant there. He told me every day that he loves me and now....I realized yesterday that I love him too. I've never been in love this deep before. So now we're going out and I'm sooooo confused now, with the deals with Sofia, Marc-Anthony and now Ben. Ben's a keeper, but if Sofia's going out with James then I'm allowed to keep him. If not, then I'll have to choose.......I hate that! But Marc-Anthony is a hard decision.
I'm leaving tomorrow at noon so we'll see.....I'll miss u Ben!!! I love you sooooo much!!!!
And as for Jules.....talk to Sofia please. And tell Becky yurself sometime SOON!!!
Sofia.....talk to you when I get back....hopefully you'll actually pick up the phone :P
Marc-Antoinne......Je te vois au Canada bientot!!!
Okay and yeah I'm gonna see my Godfather who I haven't seen him in 6 years!!! I know I'm gonna cry when I see him....because I'm emotional like that. Thats what happens when he abandons me......I yell at him, he finally comes and I'll cry when I see him. Its only for a day.....to make up for 6 FUCKING YEARS!!!! WTF!? I'm pissed at this and I might act bitchy towards him....he'd better ask me a million questions about me or else he might as well just not show up......if he doesn't I swear to mother-fucking god he will be cut out of my life forever!!! I WILL NEVER SPEAK TO HIM AGAIN!!! If he's not interested in how much I've changed since I was fucking 9 years old than I want nothing to do with him. I'll have to warn my Grandpa that I'm gonna cry and hopefully his family won't mind....oh well, I don't like them anyways. Screw them.
As for my wieght issue I was anorexic for like 5 days then Ben helped me. That's why I stopped so soon. I'm positive he loves me since not only did he say it, but his reaction when I told him I loved him back....just everything about him. In fact.....I have a nice surprise in store for him. I might give it to him tomorrow....or I might wait. But to make him happy I might do it tomorrow.....or then again I might have to know him a little better.
Let's just see, shall we? ;-)
-Demonic_Punk