its just how i roll
When I feel sadness I need to get through...i take photos. There was a time i was a cutter to bleed my pain away, at a time when cutter was not the term...but it was my word. I cant allow that escape anymore.
Dont tell me about crazy...I know all about crazy, and this isnt it. This is coping.
I needed to...take pictures to make it bearable.
My mother just came down....What are you doing Kash? I have a computer problem. *In the middle of my bleeding photo session.* Cutters can you just imagine someone walking in on you in your most personal moment of indulgence? ( Great, way to run me into a brick wall to hide my moment of hurting. No, I wont this time. ) Mom, my friend died and I just found out about it....explain. I do, understood. I explain it all...who I was and how the deaths are piling up. How any one of them could have been me. This one wasnt drug related, but I told her about them too in this last year. How I went to my babies and just hugged them a bit ago after finding out...I needed to hug my babies. Can you imagine those mothers pain of losing their child? Okay, I love you Kasia...and what you are feeling, is exactly what your father and I feared for you for many years. I know Mom, I know. Im sorry.
Dont tell me about crazy...I know all about crazy, and this isnt it. This is coping.
I needed to...take pictures to make it bearable.
My mother just came down....What are you doing Kash? I have a computer problem. *In the middle of my bleeding photo session.* Cutters can you just imagine someone walking in on you in your most personal moment of indulgence? ( Great, way to run me into a brick wall to hide my moment of hurting. No, I wont this time. ) Mom, my friend died and I just found out about it....explain. I do, understood. I explain it all...who I was and how the deaths are piling up. How any one of them could have been me. This one wasnt drug related, but I told her about them too in this last year. How I went to my babies and just hugged them a bit ago after finding out...I needed to hug my babies. Can you imagine those mothers pain of losing their child? Okay, I love you Kasia...and what you are feeling, is exactly what your father and I feared for you for many years. I know Mom, I know. Im sorry.