Not making the promise to myself...(edited) yes I am!

[demonia]

MY KIDS RULES

1. If I like, its mine

2. If its in my hand, its mine

3. If I had it a little while ago, its mine

4. If it looks just like mine, its mine

5. If I think its mine, its mine ! ! !

A friend of mine posted her New Years resolution.  I cant remember if Ive ever seen a resolution, that really struck me as this did.  That made me think for once

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[ilwitchgrrl]

This exact same resolution has sparked similar feelings in me, Kasia...you are not alone! Every time I think about it I want to do it too but I'm scared and jealous and nervous and completely neurotic about it.

The really weird thing is I have no trouble handling the phone at work. Or with my family, like my mom or OJ. It's just extended family and friends. It's not even like I have to worry about creditors harrassing me or anything (I actually think this is what it stems from for me; harrassing creditors from years ago when I totally screwed up my finances and couldn't deal and had a nervous breakdown) because I've pretty much fixed those issues, and also telemarketers are not an issue because I just don't answer phone calls from people I don't know, lol.

But then I get calls from people I DO know and I sit, paralyzed, watching the phone ring and wishing I had the courage to answer. And then it takes me anywhere from hours to days to work up the nerve to call the person back after they leave a message.

Once I'm on the phone, I'm fine. It's the act of GETTING on the phone that messes me up.

I also have a couple friends that I don't really like to talk to (namely a couple of my male friends who are either gamers and/or really weird...there are actual reasons behind my not wanting to talk to them a lot that I don't need to get into here) and I sometimes wonder if being afraid of the phone in general is easier for me than specifically avoiding a couple people on the phone. I don't know if that makes sense or not.

I also experience anxiety about having to get OFF the phone...like if I'm talking to someone and I'm fine but then the kids start crying or OJ needs me or something, I have a lot of trouble cutting off the conversation and saying 'hey, I gotta go, we'll talk later'. So I wonder if it's 'easier' for me to just not start.

Obviously I've overanalyzed my phone phobia a whole bunch. Mostly I wanted to say that you're SO not alone, and the exact same resolution struck a chord with me too :)

I am SO jealous of everyone becoming 'phone friends' here on the internet, lol. I want to play too! But it makes me completely anxious. How messed up is that? This should be EASY, damnit.
ah hell. So if anyone wants to call ME, I'm at 773-860-1108. I can't guarantee answering or timely callbacks, but I'll sure as hell make the effort to try. I guess that's somethign I can resolve to do this year. I can just TRY.

I need a 'phone terror' icon.

[ilwitchgrrl]

and...here it is. Thank you, google image search.

[saribeth]

LMAO! Perfection.

[demonia]

Haha...I need to make one too

[ilwitchgrrl]

you're welcome to steal the one I just made if you want it, lol. I stole the image, so hell, why not :) Phone freaks unite!

[demonia]

OMG...we should start a Phone Freaks community! Hahhahaa...a support group and we all have to call eachother...while we sweat. Then we have to post pics of us sweating in our next post.

Yeah I have no problem with doing business/bills/ordering food type calls...just friends. Totally bizarre. I like getting messages from friends though, sometimes I call back. It plays on my brain for awhile and either I finally do, or so much time has gone by that I just forget.

Once Im on, Im fine too...just get me there! I guess its the same though about going out...get me there and Im fine.

Its actually a total RELIEF when I get the answering machine/voice mail. PHEW!

[ilwitchgrrl]

I was actually thinking of starting some sort of weekly conference call that we're all welcome to join in on...the mama phone freaks weekly call or something, lol. We just set it for a specific time each week and whoever can make it calls in to chat.

I don't know if there are freebie ways to set up conference calls though...like at work, we use a service to have calls and they give us an 800 number and a number of lines to use. but it costs a lot of money too. I don't want to pay a lot of money, lol.

Anyone have any interest in something like this? If I could find a freebie way to set it up would y'all call?

[saribeth]

Oh Kristi, you have such a way of making sense out of things like this! Mine may be from debt collector calls too.
My phone-friend jealousy is what started me on this path to conquering the fear. Meg calling me everyday, sometimes a couple times a day, is what made answerig the phone less scary :) I just have to remember that once I'm on I enjoy it, it's just getting the courage up to push that 'talk' button. Sometimes, and this is so lame, if I'm really nervous I end up out of breath, lol, which is totally uncool, cause then I worry the person on the other line might think it's an obscene phone call! Oh yea... crazy.

[demonia]

I want the out of breath call...for sure!

Hmmm...I have no phone-friend jealousy going on, I think I may even have just become comfortable in being this way. I just want to change it, because I know its whack.

[ilwitchgrrl]

I want the out of breath phone call too! But only if you ask me if I'm wearing any panties. I love it when heavy breathers ask about panties. Bonus points if you work the word "moist" into the conversation.

...am I the only person that thinks the word "moist" sounds dirty?...

[saribeth]

OMG! I'm trying to laugh quietly so Eric doesn't ask what I'm laughing about and I have to go back and explain this to him!