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will i be missed. all i have done is give to those that need what i have. i say i live for others, so she saids thats no way to live. i know no other way to live. am i just a waist. my life isn't even mine anymore in 3 weeks. i feel like all i do is give. i would like to find love that is more than just 1 way. that could be my reason to come back. but i have no reason to come back. i cant gain new friends. its too hard for me. all i have done over the years is lose friends. i try so hard to keep the ones i think i still have. i know soon i will just become a pushed aside memory to them. i guess its who i am and what i do. to drift slowly and slightly in and out of peoples lives. sometimes i truly want to die, because its so hard to live. i cant even think of when i went wrong. i cant blame to lack of love i have left to give on tori because i was sad long before i knew her. this is the only place i share these thoughts and feelings. if someone was to ask me how i feel about going into the marines i would say that i don't care and what ever. but I'm scared. very. i don't know if i can do it. i lost all motivation. i have no one else to do with for. I'm doing it for be. but if i was to really do something for me i would much prefer to sleep forever. to die or to leave and never come back, these are generally the same act right. so aether way. will i be missed.
3 "friends" i know are getting married. and they are all younger than me. are they really that happy. i wonder what that feeling is like.
i have a friend who showed me what love is. your new live sounds fun and exciting. and I'm not in it. but thats ok. be happy.
i have a friend who showed me what friendship is. i don't even know what you are doing or if you remember me. but thats ok. be happy.
i have a friend that showed me how my opposite would live. you are everything i would walk past on the street without a second thought. you have so many friends, am i so replaceable. but thats ok. be happy.
well its a little after 2 in the morning. i'm going to sleep this whole day away. because being awake wouldn't make much difference.
3 "friends" i know are getting married. and they are all younger than me. are they really that happy. i wonder what that feeling is like.
i have a friend who showed me what love is. your new live sounds fun and exciting. and I'm not in it. but thats ok. be happy.
i have a friend who showed me what friendship is. i don't even know what you are doing or if you remember me. but thats ok. be happy.
i have a friend that showed me how my opposite would live. you are everything i would walk past on the street without a second thought. you have so many friends, am i so replaceable. but thats ok. be happy.
well its a little after 2 in the morning. i'm going to sleep this whole day away. because being awake wouldn't make much difference.