So, I went for another walk tonight. This one didn't have the spontainiety of the first one, nor was it as relaxing. In fact I'd say this one was almost distrubing
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I find myself facing similar introspections today. Last night, my uncle fell down the stairs and was killed. I'm still kind of in shock. My father had to go "help clean up the mess" unfortunately, as I was told there was a lot of blood. I didn't go, I stayed here. The incident has left me with a jolt to my own sense of mortality.
I admit with almost a sense of guilt that I now am questioning life itself again. If a stupid accident like this can result in our immediate end, should we all not make the most of life? Should we try and do all of the things we want (or think we want) to do so we can always look back with no regrets? Or should one look at the other side of the coin? Why bother doing anything if we're all going to meet some unexpected end ultimately? How can the road traveled in life really mean anything when our own existence is a limted time offer?
Personally, I feel trapped between these two conflicting emotions right now.
As for your situation, I think you answer yourself rather well. I'd say you have a lot of significant things to show for the last 6 months, by your own words. All of those things you mentioned that you have done (and plan to do) are all examples of taking advantage of life, and not letting it take advantage of you. Even failed relationships can be viewed in a favorable hindsight eventually. Because each of them had thier moments where you wouldn't have rather been anywhere else in the world. Those are the moments that are worthwhile in memory, not the ones that eventually add up to to the end of the relationship.
If one side of that aforementioned coin is correct, then the path you've taken in the last 6 months has been worth it and you shouldn't just look at where you are now. Because you are still on that path. You aren't stopping and settling for this. You're still going on and striving for a better life.
I hope that is the right side of the coin because I really don't like dwelling on that darker side.
Yea Gods and Powers, I'm sory to hear about your uncle. *hugs* From the description though, it's probably safe to assume that he died instantly and didn't suffer.
Whatever the case thanks so much for everything you said. I really appreciate it, and honestly, things don't look so bad this morning as they did last night. *snuggles*
You know, Wapr 11 is recording a new albumn, and in fact are almost done. When are you coming to visit?? ^_~
Last night, my uncle fell down the stairs and was killed. I'm still kind of in shock. My father had to go "help clean up the mess" unfortunately, as I was told there was a lot of blood. I didn't go, I stayed here. The incident has left me with a jolt to my own sense of mortality.
I admit with almost a sense of guilt that I now am questioning life itself again. If a stupid accident like this can result in our immediate end, should we all not make the most of life? Should we try and do all of the things we want (or think we want) to do so we can always look back with no regrets?
Or should one look at the other side of the coin? Why bother doing anything if we're all going to meet some unexpected end ultimately? How can the road traveled in life really mean anything when our own existence is a limted time offer?
Personally, I feel trapped between these two conflicting emotions right now.
As for your situation, I think you answer yourself rather well. I'd say you have a lot of significant things to show for the last 6 months, by your own words. All of those things you mentioned that you have done (and plan to do) are all examples of taking advantage of life, and not letting it take advantage of you. Even failed relationships can be viewed in a favorable hindsight eventually. Because each of them had thier moments where you wouldn't have rather been anywhere else in the world. Those are the moments that are worthwhile in memory, not the ones that eventually add up to to the end of the relationship.
If one side of that aforementioned coin is correct, then the path you've taken in the last 6 months has been worth it and you shouldn't just look at where you are now. Because you are still on that path. You aren't stopping and settling for this. You're still going on and striving for a better life.
I hope that is the right side of the coin because I really don't like dwelling on that darker side.
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Whatever the case thanks so much for everything you said. I really appreciate it, and honestly, things don't look so bad this morning as they did last night. *snuggles*
You know, Wapr 11 is recording a new albumn, and in fact are almost done. When are you coming to visit?? ^_~
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